`raciayoong :)

dance like nobody's watching!

2010-04-16T07:37:00.000-07:00

Thesssse are kinda overdued, they were pictures mr adam took from the first performance we had in this costume @ ccab. I couldnt be bothered to rmb the date hehehe i uploaded these few in favour of JT. The other more spontaneous (& not forgetting pretty-looking) pix are in fb.

Apparently, some are not yet put up HAHAHAHA, enjoy..

16/4/10

2010-04-16T07:27:00.001-07:00

Guess what? Today was awesome to the maaaax, we had commendation day performance once again. Ohhh and, it was another great day @ class with 3e4 :)

However today was the lassssssssst performance we had with the seniors cuz they had to stand down and prepare for o's :( i'm really gonna miss them. All that h2h mass talks, pigging around, bitching, being ohso bimbotic, camwhore craze (like suuuuuuupppppppeeeeerrrrrr), past experiences, punishment (syf for eg. all for one, one for all), scoldings and long lectures from mr adam. A lot more to add on in fact.

Well i guess what i'm trying to say is, dance is going to be boring once practice resumes cuz the seniors will not be around anymore... They were the ones who brought joy and laughter in the midst of everyone, they brought in comfort and a warmly atmosphere to the studio. We never failed to laugh with them... Sigh but it's all ending. Today.

Personally i enjoyed myself very x1234567890 much today. Supposing it's the last time i'm gonna perform with the seniors, i told myself to cast it all to God and let Him decide how the night's gonna go. TODAY WAS THE BEEEESSST PERFORMANCE I HAD IN GYSS.

Really, i'm gonna miss them. But i'll not cry (duhhhh) i'll try to get over it (i definitely will, it's just a matter of time hahahahah)

NOTE: Kor's birthday is next sunday! I've yet to save up, decide and shop for his present! Father tell me what i should get for kor's present, lead me!!!

forever i hope.

2010-04-13T06:27:00.000-07:00

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/stomp/sgseen/what_bugs_me/352340/teens+fight+like+hooligans+at+rugby+match.html

This. Is. Freaking. Stupid.
It totally pissed me and cherie off like qwertyuiopasdfghjklzxcvbnm!!!

OMGGG IT WAS MY BEST FRIEND THEY INJURED, IF IT WAS SOME OTHER RANDOM DUDE I DONT CARE!! And yet, the reporters are still paid to report crap.
Crap : Sas boys were behaving like hooligans, going up to acsi boys to pick a fight despite sportsmanship and after losing a rugby match against them.

WTH!!! That. Is. Not. True.
Screw that referee and the reporters. I think they are the ones who know nothing about sportsmanship.

I'm gonna see if i got the time to fly to clarke quay/novena to get some candies for erv. They'll make him happy again. I'm gonna make him smile this saturday. Just like he always do to me when i'm sad :(

oh what the heck.

2010-04-11T06:50:00.000-07:00

Hey banana! ................................... Hey plumpkin! ........................................... Hey apple! ................................... Hey! Ermmm oh whatever.

Im kinda troubled right now, oh wells. Im gonna shake this confusion out of my head and be awesome again!! SO BYE.

when there was me and you.

2010-04-05T22:18:00.000-07:00

I don't miss you, because........... I miss who you used to be.

I wish I could go back in time and correct something.

I want to hear you say you miss me. It would make things happier.

ever-increasing God

2010-04-05T08:45:00.000-07:00

Daddy God really really loves me, I swear. And Jesus truly faithfully, undoubtly obeys and listens to the Father's every word. Try and get the link ok? ;)

Now, the cool Me's gonna talk about the cool stuff I did since last... Shall we start with wednesday?
- 3E4 went to visit the old folks at the geylang home for aged. I sat with zen and we had a lot to talk about! Thank God for my new class because he restored and he multipled. My class is super united and i love every single one of them! Just like in the bible, there's a something something verse like "Be contented (and grateful) with what I grant you and I will grant you more of what your heart holds dear.."

I love the old folks there. Although things kinda start out strange, unusual and shy but things got better when the class played songs and got the folks to sing clap cheer and dance along.. We moved on to games and other stuff. Most of us found common topics to chat with the folks there and we got them to open up more. Then some of them talked to us about their kids and wwii! Yup. The bus ride back to school was ridiculously noisy.. The jokers in the class started to throw paper balls within the bus. Gay.

- On thurs, I had napfa after school! It was great fun but the teachers are stupid and annoying. Whatev. So move on move on.. I met jun @ raffles/city hall around 5+ for dinner @ Mac with the befrienders before I meet with some music min ppl x)

Servers night was like soo good I wished it was longer.. oh wells, pw was good too! Sadly i didnt see abby :(

- GOOD FRIDAY YAYAY. i lazed around at home and did nothing but tv tv tv tv tv. Till evening when i met up with jun and bel for steamboat @ amk. CHEAP, SCUMPTIOUS, COOLING. what more are you lacking?! ;) We talked like lots seriously. From school to cca to church to friends to ministries to serving to midweek to teachers to crushes to biology to math to chinese.. And on our way to the bus stop............... Sexual reproduction (biology you see) to crimes to fugly cases on the newspaper to disgusting people who have no self-respect to dance to canoeing to choir to ndp to future outings to EJ!!! to... a lot more other stuff. We were ultimate chatterboxes LOL.

After jun and i sent bel off @ the bus stop, we took the train to novena for some ice cream and there and then, we had some serious h2h talk. I felt God's presence :)

- DARE on saturday... Nothing much. Best part was the pw, serving (God fulfilled the desire of zephan's heart!), sermon, and......... success in surprise belate celebrating jun's birthday!! At koufu. We were all happy children :) :) :)

- Sunday... was good. With krista jordon clarisse abby cherie joash jasper jay and we met nisha!! (L)

- MONDAY MONDAY MONDAY. just passed 5 min ago. Oh well we celebrated jieyun's birthday at cafe cartel in J8 with andy cr xq jerico sze li kerence max (extra) and me! It was fun to have people like them around... It lightens up the atmosphere HAHAH. Andy and his 5k coins... Sigh.

OMFG I GOT TO CATCH UP WITH A LITTLE TINY CUTE ADORABLE SWEET LOVELY GIRL (by the nickname of...) : RENNIE THE TINY DYNAMIC. I MISS HER A LOT (seriously, a lot!!!)... K I'LL STOP TALKING ABOUT HER. HAHAHA (ps i barely started.. sorry renwen, if you're reading this!)
Lastly, im totally gonna meet up with wanyin and charity some time soon!.. :)

super-abounding grace

2010-04-03T08:12:00.000-07:00

Forgive and forget and let go and accept the fact
Don't stop yourself from feeling happy even though you may have lost something/someone that was your happiness
Not everybody can be trusted. Only very few can be trusted and I thank god for them :) xx
Not everyone is like how you imagined them to be. They can be two-faced sometimes.
Pick yourself up cause nobody will be able to do that. They can only be there for you and support you but you have to pick yourself up, alone.

I got this little thingo from claire's lj and I think this was spirit-led and the spirit kinda spoke to me... Well, credits to claire low :) and definitely, glory to God.

I pray that all things will fall into place in the sound of Jesus. I don't wanna get affected by the little/huge things going on around. The anointing is upon me, and as long as I follow His Word @ moments like this, Jesus HAVE ALREADY uplifted me (: Amen!!~

:/

2010-04-03T07:54:00.001-07:00

I am very very very fed up right now, I could explode anytime.

But I'm NOT gonna let the devil have his way. I NEED JESUS...

Next time, I'm gonna be wise and not tell you things.

faces.

2010-03-31T06:30:00.000-07:00

I'm not just a face in the crowd. Imma beloved, that's my special unique identity.
It's irreplacable.

Anyway, I've 2 tests tmr & I'm not ready.. Jesus I need you *tears* As my wisdom and faith. Please? Alright amen *slight doubt*. Let tomorrow pass and it's a holi-DAY + eventful weekend.

screwed.

2010-03-27T07:22:00.000-07:00

I've no might.

I'm powerless. But I still wanna miss you.

I feel like it.

However, I don't enjoy missing you.

Because when i miss you, it shows we're not hanging out anymore.

That we're not spending as much time together as before.

I absolutely HATE that.

I miss _____, very very much.

If only we could still be best best friends...

******************

You told me: "You should try and strike a conversation with him."

I replied: "No, I cannot and I won't do it again. I'm exhausted from all that trying."

You reminded me: "You just gotta try one more time. After all, best friends always fight."

I finally reassured you: "Yes but I'm never turning back to look at that situation again."

*************

I told jochebel this:

"Do you know, that everytime I see ____,
I'll be reminded of the past?

Of the promises he made to me?

Of the littlest yet thoughtful things he did for me?
Of the extra mile he took for me?

Of his laughter, of his smile?

Of everything...
And I'll feel hurt,

& discontentment, and unhappiness.

Becuz I realise then that he never kept his promise about this friendship..
Then that strike of anger and unforgiving heart takes over.

I'll cry,

Because I feel horrid and I don't like things this way.

*****************

I wrote you a letter, I made you a card,

You simply rejected it.

sometimes i just wanna hate you.

2010-03-25T08:28:00.000-07:00

This is fucking stupid.

stuck at the moment.

2010-03-23T05:46:00.000-07:00

I'm stinkin' bored bored BORED.
Talkin' to jeter over @ msn now.. Haha cool, got to catch up after the last time we had SJ prac @ jay's (Y)

I'm all done with my school work! Even those that's supposed to be handed in -NOT TOMORROW- Wow, truly God's restful increase. Hahah I feel rested :)
However I can't help but feel kinda bored.. Now that i'm left with nothing to do.

To-do list:

Im gonna practise piano pieces,
Watch TV,
Read Manga Munity,
Meditate on the Word (spiritual warfare)
... then SLEEP EARLY.

Yeahhhh righttt :> P/s Mother tongue today was fruitful yayay.

more than conquerors.

2010-03-22T03:01:00.001-07:00

Days ahead are gonna be SO super blessed for me cuz God is with me, and I know it.
FAITH.

Im gonna rest, even though everything seems to be happening like craze and nuts, but Jesus said He'll calm the storms for me.
Besides, He's my wisdom to manage and do all things right, right? Haha Amen.

A week's holiday passed literally in a few blinks. Yesterday felt like the first day of hols, and today, nearly half passed. Time pass so quickly when you're busy... But it's good! Hehe cuz tell me, WHO LIKES A SCHOOL DAY?!?! Yeahhh man x)

Im looking forward to Saturday! When i'm spending it with the dg. Awesome ~~shit~~ blessing yea?

And honestly, though i love dance and i look forward to exciting events coming up, Father, i just don't feel like turning up for cca tmr. Sigh but i know you'll lead me to do the right things @ the right time.
You'll make me do what you planned for me to do. What is right, and that will bless me.

Although the teachers have already constantly been reminding the class about mye's load and heavy percentage, and it creeps me a lil. I do feel afraid and flabbergasted at the amount of time i'm left with to the exams. In my mind i was like !@#$%^&*? when the teachers told us we were left with 6 frigging weeks.
Including all that school workshops, supplementary classes, cca, ongoing activities, school performances and etc. Plain insanity. So much work from every teacher. I bet i'll be dead sooner or later.

But Jesus, salvage me from all these. Im gonna conquer them by the righteousness of faith, the busyness won't conquer me. I'll control them! Amen!!

:)

so much for my happy ending.

2010-03-14T09:03:00.000-07:00

When I saw you again, I nearly dropped tears, but i held it back.
I knew then that I still missed you dearly.
Searchin' deeper, there's still an empty space left for you to fill.

i see your face in my mind

2010-03-14T08:55:00.000-07:00

313 WAS (Y)

But it would've been better if I wasn't so distracted, & if only I understood the language better..

Oh wells, it was a looong yesterday. It was errr fun and why er? Cuz the day didnt turn out the way I wanted it to be ): how disappointing. Why fun? Cuz the dg made my day.
I loved the musical. It also gives me an opportunity to tease Terence and Meladie now hehe ;)

Kor owes me lunch. He's so dead >:)

hmm whatcha say?

2010-03-08T02:31:00.000-08:00

The weekend was crazy. I was all sweaty and jumpy and joyful and happening on saturday @ dare and nuts all over my head. But I was calm and peaceful and gleeful and cool on sunday @ church. I kinda slept with a smile on my face yesterday night, and I like that.

It's possible that Jesus would make school day a church day for you! Cuz He made today one for me :) I'm eyeing on 313. The dg's mtg frigging early on saturday to swim @ yj's then lunch then blah blah blah. Wait for my updates till then, bye! (L)

heavy heart

2010-03-01T04:06:00.001-08:00

Hi there.

Weekdays in school are awesome, especially with 3E4. I'd never wanna miss a day of school all thanks to a class of crazy nuts :)
BUT. weekends are especially awesome for me cuz I meet awesome people and I KNOW MORE ABOUT JESUS JESUS JESUS

Im happy and I'll be. My past weekend was ordinary yet eventful.

Level session on Sat - followed by dinner @ grandpa's - homed past midnight
3rd service on Sun - spent the morning w mom & we had early lunch - got to Mac's by noon
Service was great! Jesus is so super cool you know? He keeps reminding us that We are His beloved & We are more than conquerors even though we have heard that more than a million times? (those may just be the norm but thinking deeper, you just know that Jesus is reminding you that becuz you're His beloved, and God has made you more than conquerors; to reign over every odds, He'll fight your battles for you!)
Stayed for 4th PW, met ernie & han quan & joy keshyap (Y)
I disturbed dylan, joy chua's son (along with anthony and james) HAHAHA i'm so motherly, not
We joined the level 4's to study @ MPG. ___ taught me a variety of strumming methods then. & kylie helped me with bio (Y)
We left @ 7+ and i got home by cab with bel, but still late ): haha that's it!

She told me "You can do without him".
But what's troubling me now is the BIG question:
"Isn't he my best friend?"
Thinking to myself and knowing, I won't be able to forget about it.
Or rather, i can't and i know i won't; he's my best buddy for more than a reason.

I miss him alot.

from the inside out.

2010-02-24T06:29:00.000-08:00

Me : "Hi." You : "Hello, how was your day?"

If only something like THAT could've happened last night, i wouldn't still be feeling as upset as i am now. If only you could've been more sensitive OR sensible. I'mma girl. Helloo?!? don't you see? Look who's your best friend now.

If i were you then, i wouldn't have cared about what those people thought or said cuz I didn't come for them, i came for my pal. It could've been a simple 10 min but it dragged on for hours. I didn't like that and i didn't want that.

You're either stupid, retarded (like patrick the starfish) or brainless.

if only i could replay that moment.

2010-02-22T02:27:00.000-08:00

I was so sad i threw away my favourite 2 piece chicken meal.

It wouldn't be the 127th day if i gave it to you on another day besides today.

Do you see the significance now?

holy are you god.

2010-02-21T05:54:00.000-08:00

The many things that made my day go !@#$%^&*? crazily awesome :

Hillsong Aus led in praise & worship today
I took a picture with darlene
Cliff and ernie remembers me
Cliff and ernie initiated a fist punch
Ernie placed his hand over my shoulder for a few sec
Ps henry shook my hand
I made a new friend, he's ernie's friend (han cheng or smth) and he's handsome, cuz he looks eurasian
My new friend held my hand for some time
I shook hands with both guitarist from the hillsong band
One of the guitarist who played @ the end of svc gave me his guitar pick (white!)
The drummer, brandon (surname: gilles i think) shook my hand, hugged me and had a conversation with me!!!! that was totally OH.EM.GEE x1000
I took a picture with the drummer
Adeline gan and alicia said hi to me cuz they recognised me (hehehe)
I received so much from svc AND praise & worship today

First of all, I LOVE BRANDON GILLES (?) he's a freaking insane drummer. & today he had officially became nicholas's and moi new inspiration. He hits the drum set like freaking hard and he's looks damn crazy but moreover, he's still hot and really reeeeeally handsome x123456789.

Seriously, jochebel and i could just stand right in front of him and stare @ him for ages and ages to come. What's more he's a really nice guy with tattoos everywhere. But that's not the point, cuz the point is that HE IS HAWT. i think i have fallen for him cuz he's irrestibly charming HAHAHAHAHA (Y)

Today, we spent 4 hours waiting to take a picture with darlene and she looks extremely beautiful. She freaking shook my hand ya know? Yeap. I love her. Today was simply OMG. So many interesting things happened and i'm really happy that i've decided to come today. All glory to Jesus! God is so faithful, He lead me to do my hw last night so that today i can lead my day @ church carefree & restful cuz i know i've completed all of my work and revision (:

Today is a favour-filled day. It was unmeritted favour. I know it's from God and definitely, His love never fails me. There is so much to talk about today but i shall keep it between God and i.

By the way, we went for 3rd svc today and stayed for 4th p&w, and returned @ the end of 4th to get the free guitar picks & drum sticks the band gave away. How cool is that. I know righttttt K bye! x)

live life the god way.

2010-02-20T08:24:00.001-08:00

TODAY IS FREAKING AWESOME (after dare)

Cuz i went to becky's house for family reunion dinner @ bedok ria.

I love byon, he's such a biggie doggie. I told him to sheesh and he really stopped barking haha (Y)

I didn't get to serve in the choir today though, i received a lot from the Word.

After service, i met lots and lots of people. I got to pass them the straw heart bookmarks i made by myself. Aww sooo sweet right x)

p/s: QUINCY MUST LOVE GREEN.

Pearlyn and i didnt join the dg to pomo to jam, instead we went shopping and the stuff @ new look rock x12356789 but the prices were over-rated and basically similar to top shop.

I bought pizza for dinner before heading down to koufu where i met nikolai, and i walked back again to food terrace to surprise celebrate krista's bday 8)

AND BACK AGAIN to koufu & join the lvl 1s before aaron and i were picked up by dad to becky's place. It was so much fun during lou hei + dinner + watching soccer + sharing corn jokes again + cracking up @ the nonsense philbert spouts + etc HAHAHAHA

It's 12.31 am and i have completed poa + math + some more math (i cannot live a day without doing math. i simply love math) seriouslyyy.

Tmr i'll be doing bio & chem. Good night!

when the stars refuse to shine,

2010-02-17T06:40:00.000-08:00

"Ouhh" looks so much like "Ouch"

I don't understand why people have to twist and change words haiyo (:

Anyways i've been grounded from using the phone to chat with friends cuz mom found out i've been doing that for like, FOREVER -.-

CNY '10 was AWESOME i love my relatives i love my family i love my couzies i love my friends but most of all, I LOVE THE $$$ (: hahahaha!

YIIIIIPEEZ 2 more days of digusting-looking books & teachers to DARE DARE DARE (i just love dare, don't you?) k now, i'm only visit fb before i hit the sheets and go zzz (: bye!

through it all.

2010-02-11T03:31:00.001-08:00

I'm feeling all lazy and sleepy and clumsy and exhausted and frustrated and annoyed and angry.

!@#$%^&*?:/

My wednesday afternoon was so wasted. Hahaha, sigh

I've been slping past 12 midnight these days cuz of work. Emotional overdose? (huh wtheck)

I wanna sleep nooooooow.

i want to sing of your great love.

2010-02-06T05:22:00.001-08:00

Wednesday, was so much fun and so much laughter

With 2 jokers : nicholas seet and yang juin.

It was after school when the guys made their way from J8 to gy just to pick xt and i up,

and we made our way back to J8 again HAHAH. Seet was hilarious.

We had our lunch @ macdonalds where we crap a lot and played w seet's mac.

However, the day would be ended off better if xt didn't left for her piano lesson which had to start before 5.

Anw, the remaining 3 went to PoMo and jammed.

I studied chem! With some help from nicholas. He's such a smarty azz.

Today, was an even more eventful day.

Having been @ dare. Serving with the choir. Hanging out w the dg @ subway. Going bimbo craze with elaine (tsk tsk i really cannot stand her hahaha)

... Before leaving off to koufu to pick aaron up, and we went home!

Hmm aaron's level is really bonded and close.

Praise god for that, and also the unity within the DGs man :>

Today was such a wonderful time of worship, God was in the house (:

& as for tomorrow, God will make it a better day.

I am not able to wake up early tmr morning to mug. I am not able to focus while i'm revising for my work. I am not able to find favour with everything i do, and with everyone i meet.

I am not able to do many things.

But God will make it happen for me, I can do all things through christ that strengthens me :)

I cannot do it, but He can make it possible for me AMEN.

jeremiah 29:11

2010-02-01T02:47:00.000-08:00

I got kicked out of class today,

because i didn't do a piece of sheet.

But nonetheless, it's really fun mixing around and getting to know your new classmates better. It's so much fun in 3E4 than in 3E1, haha! :s
Although, i really detest coming to school, to look at those sickening faces and most of all, you get tests day in day out (wtf)

we're under grace.

2010-01-31T05:55:00.000-08:00

I like my level 3 '10.

God will make us bond together and unite for His love and glory!

Today was an awesome day. With : abby cherie kiah krista xt kimb cheryl jochebel quincy kenneth shawn nikolai ervin wence aaron seet yj danielle joel nisha jay joy jason jasper shervinn. & i met a lot of familiar faces. Today was a little bit here and there and everywhere and I SIMPLY LOVE SUNDAYS LIKE TODAY (: god's workin' he's movin' alright haha!

I am so happy today, however i'm exhausted and i'm not looking forward to school tmr.
But His favour surround me like a shield and He will give me wisdom to manage my time, my friends, my work, my studies, my family and my other commitments (: JESUS LOVES ME VERY MUCH hehe, bye!

tell me bout yourself.

2010-01-29T03:57:00.000-08:00

I NEED TO KNOW WHERE YOU ARE

REASON : i just wanna talk to you.

jump then fall.

2010-01-28T03:42:00.001-08:00

I have a reason for not attending cross country tmr : I sprained my ankle during dance.
(thank god for everything - be it good or BAD) HAHAHA :/

Anyways i think the school is really dumb. No one's gonna run at the cross country race tmr, perhaps just a good 5% out of the thousand ++ people that's gna be there. Lol i bet everyone's just gna be walking and reluctantly wasting 4 hours of their pathetic time in macritchie, seriously. I think the school should just organise smth else better...

I'd rather stay in shool to study and do work and face boring old teachers. You learn and you gain. Beats getting bitten by mosquitos and smacked in the face by mischievous lil monkeys. Nasty yet nice to watch HAHA (: k bye

your blood has ransomed me.

2010-01-27T03:52:00.000-08:00

Gideon : "Do you have a dog?"
Racia : "No"
Gideon : "Do you have a cat at home?"
Racia : "No"
Gideon : "Can we end this game?"
Racia : "OF COURSE NOT HAHAHA"

& I made a new friend today, his name is zephan. He's a really nice and kind person.
And i realise that God gives us many things in life that we don't want for or have never expected, thought of or asked for. He just gives it to us, because He knows it's gna bless us - be it a person or thing or circumstance; He knows it's gna benefit us and it will reach out to us in certain aspects of our lives. So thank you Jesus (:

I will trust You in my tests tmr, and the following week. Jesus my wisdom, my sweatless effortless victory :)

* Saturday : Surprise surprise!!! Gonna be hanging out w the dg. *
YIPPEEE IT'S GNA BE FUN AND EXCITING, I SO CANNOT WAIT.

"blablabla"

2010-01-27T03:48:00.001-08:00

Female teachers are like monsters.

They scream and yell and shout and complain at you like nobody's business;

WHO DO THEY THINK THEY ARE.

The only reason why i hate school it's all thanks to ugly creatures like them!

grace filled kinda feelin'

2010-01-26T03:30:00.000-08:00

Friday the 22nd was ultimate fun!
It was pearlyn's birthday and "davo" planned to give pearlyn a surprise birthday celebration at her place. She was darn shocked and touched and HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY cause the guys missed their cca for her, and i missed my bio project too haha (: but it was all worth while cause things went out better than we had expected! Just give all the praise to Daddy God man (: cause it was He who worked in our midst and planned the afternoon out for us.

It was hilarious how the girls and i hid in pearlyn's room to prepare the cake but we had no ligher to lid up the candles! & how we blew up the balloons and made lots of funny noises. & how we rushed to do everything else! HAHAHA (Y)

"SURPRISE! HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEARLYN (:" and blablabla, the guys came on time & we did the usual cut-cake routine etc, followed by some fellowship + mini P&W on pearlyn's guitar. Awesome <: after that we headed down to the playground for some fun time of CATHING & FREEZE 'N' MELT :D all time favourite hahaha. After rounds of playing we had to go off, and the day ended pretty well, however early. Cause pearlyn had to go out for dinner with fam. Oh wells, saturday was level session!!! & for the first time ever, davo were the earliest dgs to arrive & MALCOLM WAS SO PROUD OF US HAHAH. What was shared truly reached out to me and i believe, most of us. I'm gna apply the rest attitude man (: the Word is amazing and saturday was a great time of bonding whereby davo headed down to fareast to shop FOR FUN LOL (: but it got boring and the girls headed down to galleria then to shaw to meet the guys for dinner. There, we met Sean from I not stupid 1 & 2!!! TOO HOT TO BELIEVE RIGHT. he's frigging charming i like him (: hehehe, and we kept on stalking and looking at him. Fyi, we = girls only HAHAHA :s Sunday was another gr8 time of bonding with davo + roy jerome cheryl daryl derek dorothy and some other peeps (: after most left to play catching in sky garden (haha again) i met gideon, zeph (screaming inside) and my ultra pretty couz to talk about some filming stuff. & ___ was so cute he kept on complaining that this whole "idea" was a complete random bullshit (but we all know that he loved the idea, hahaha) Ok this is about all. School was quite good, i'm so ~~looking forward~~ to the rest of the days till friday (29/1 : frigging cross country is a srsly dumb idea).
Hopin' for a davo get-together at daryl's this sat (: to revive us all from 5 days of school misery. Then it's sunday again!

XINTIAN YOU BETTER COME 3RD WITH ME AND CO. HAHAHAHA (L)

the walls are closing in on us

2010-01-18T05:21:00.001-08:00

So we fight (so we fight) through the hurt (through the hurt)

And we cry (and cry and cry and cry)

And we live (and we live) and we learn (and we learn)

And we try and try and try and try

So its up to to you and its up to me
That we meet in our middle way
On our way back down to earth
Down to earth down to earth
On our way back down to earth

rest & reign.

2010-01-15T02:52:00.000-08:00

These days, i think i've gone 'sane.
Jesus, i don't know if i should let go, but i hear a voice tellin' me to.
And if i do throw everything to You, rest assure me okay? :-)

oh em gee.

GOD I CANNOT DO THIS ANYMORE :

I'M CASTING MY WORRIES AND PROBLEMS UNTO YOU ONCE AND FOR ALL.

TAKE THEM, TAKE IT ALL

AND JUST HANDLE THEM FOR ME.

IT'S YOUR BATTLE YOUR FIGHT, NOT MINE.

AND MY FAITH IN YOU :>

the best you never had.

2010-01-13T01:24:00.001-08:00

HI ALL I LOVE CHIA XIN TIAN AND KIMBERLY FUNG SUET YING.

They are like my bestest pals at school; NOT friends but pals.

'know? Friends and pals are different.

Friends are those who come and go, they don't give in their all to help you.

Whereas pals are like 'bros' or what guys call, my buddaye' who will walk through your troubles with you, no matter how hard growing up gets.

Thank you Jesus.

They are truly blessing in disguise :-)

Imagine xt and i in lower sec, sigh, and then NOW.

God's glory, awesomeee

:D :D :D

who am i?

2010-01-11T06:27:00.000-08:00

I just want some care and concern

I feel like a useless somebody. It's not difference from a nobody. I am imperfect and i feel hopeless and helpless.

Jesus help me. I want that restoration to come, but it never did.

I just want some respect, but i never got it.

I just wanna know that i mean something more than special, but i never heard it from a single mouth.

Jesus be my strength, i feel weak and grave.

breakeven.

2010-01-11T04:10:00.000-08:00

I have 12 mosquito bites on my left leg and none of my right. Ugh RETARDED OR WHATT.

Anyway level session on sat was fun :D practically the entire core was late together, haha (one for all and all for one). Everyone left orchard mrt by 1.50 when we were supposed to reach RELC by 1.30 and malcolm gave all of us a 30 min lecture :'(

What teacher charmaine and malcolm shared was definitely good, infact it's spirit filled and awesome :-) it's rly the word all of us secondary school youths need for this coming year lor, so thank you jesus :-)

Aftwards, kim xt jun clement caleb yj daryl roy and i walked to fareast and shopped, but daryl yang and i left pretty soon while the rest headed for dinner. A wonderful day ;-)

I went for sunday svc with aaron seet chua kim jun, and we were just crap throughout svc la, but god was faithful, his word has always been awesome (y) aft svc, jun treat a few of us to ichiban boshi -- paid macs a visit -- chilled out at sky garden -- homed by 2++

SCHOOL WAS ALL RIGHT. i'm looking forward to tmr, no idea why. I just know god has imparted smth special in my tmr, and it's just gna turn out better than i'd expected ;-) Amen.

P.S. sorry for my boring posts, i'm just in the "i-have-nothing-much-to-add" mood these days. I'm gna be so dead tmr, but i rebuke that in jesus name (cause i hvent bought my SS activity bk, i threw & burnt away all my sec 2 math materials - now i have nth to help revise for tmr's post test, i am "money-grounded" - mom gave me only 50 bucks for this week and i need to get study assessment books, several school necessaties, i also friggin need to pay a darn $53 amt to blog shoppers + a nice top which i paid a deposit of 5 bucks 1 month or so ago -.-)

JESUS, HELP. i don't wna be brought down, no condemnation.

Favour favour luh, i need supernatural financial assistance Amen Amen AMEN :>

colour my world.

2010-01-08T06:35:00.000-08:00

YEP, SCHOOL'S BEEN BUSY.

It was a busy week but i thank god for placing me in 3E4. Cos i'm startin' to like my class and upper sec life and the subject combi and the teachers! I swear, they are a thousand times better than lower sec teachers :-)

I will be waking up at 7-8 am tmr, I SHALL DO SCHOOL HOMEWORK (Y)
& then mom would be pleased with me and let me go for level session AMEN YIPPEEE

Darren's flying back tmr, i'm gna miss him so much. Sad thing is, i won't be able to send him off cos i'm afraid mom wouldn't be happy that i keep having things on.... although she did mention that i could make my own decisions (as long as i think it's not wrong). Oh wells, good bye darren, you're a great friend!

oh you bring.

2010-01-06T02:49:00.000-08:00

HEYLO.

School has started and being the kind of person who don't worry about stuff until it's like so soo close to date, such as reopening of school for example, i fretted i worried i feared i wearied and i couldn't get myself to slp all thanks to the lousy MOE system. I cursed and i sweared but i never stopped turning to God at moments like this...

Thus i prayed and spoke and looked to Abba about this situation i call : ugly, horrible, and despicable. You know what god did to my monday? He made it turn out not just great or awesome but SPECTACULAR :) isn't he amazing? Although i'll be studying with a small bunch of people i don't rly know, or rather i don't rly like, i know god will do something about all that some time this year, because i'm in 3E4 for wonderful purposes; even with those new people around ;) AMEN

And what i think about wishes you make when you stand on the sandy beach at east coast on 31st december 2009, heard the ships yank and sound, decided for your 2010 resolutions, and hoping hoping hopin' it'll just come to past... It doesn't matter to me now, cause even with the best words or best celebrations, without god i can do nothing or achieve not a single thing in this prosperous year.

"HI GOD HI DADDY THANK YOU FOR MAKING MY FIRST 3 DAYS AT SCHOOL FUN AND ABUNDANT." i'm gonna continue to grow in His love for me, lord, just guide me and tell me what i should do. I may not want it but MAKE ME TO DO IT. i cannot promise You i will go according to your wishes, but i know YOU CAN MAKE ME WANNA DO IT. it's your desert song :)

AMENNN

god's given rest

2009-12-29T06:21:00.000-08:00

Imma dumb-ster. i actually forgot i was actually angry with jun and start talking to him over msn all over again HAHA OMG. No wonder keith ervin joy libby keeps scolding me for being blur. Pft whtever~

ANYWAY christmas season is over :( but IT WAS AWESOME i love how carolling went. I love how catching up with cousins, friends and relatives went. I love how we would sit around and play lame games together. I love how we would gather to have turkey and spreads of great food for lunch & dinner. I love everything bout christmas this year because Jesus was truly in the midst of all :-) thank you Father, it was all for your glory and your son!

And i believe You have kept your promise as i prayed :-)

I went to libby's house today and honestly, it was kinda silly of me to do that cause by the time i reached there after my facial appointment, ervin was leaving already PFT. and i lost my way cause the lil kids didn't wna be kind souls :-) it was only 3 bus stops away for cryin out loud!

So anw, keith and co. were looking aimlessly for me while i was at another bus stop. Epic failed. Point is, today was kinda suck but tmr will be a lot better cause... I'm mtg the dg for night movie @ amk!!! Sad to say pearlyn and sherlyn aren't gng :( oh wells, BYE

time for miracles.

2009-12-21T21:44:00.001-08:00

Hahah i'm so dead. I am so over blogging and sticking your head right into blogger, posting every single day. Oh wells! I still like this blog and i'm not letting it go to waste :-)

The past week was rather busy for me. Cause i had to prepare gifts for 70-90 other people, it was a lot of hard work ya knw. But it's about the joy of giving la, so it was kinda fun doing all tht :-)

Monday and friday were the only days i went out and had fun.
Monday : followed ervin to get christmas gifts. I did my own too! Got excellent gifts for the dg :-) yay. And they liked it a lot! Thank you God! Hahah. Ervin was an idiot tht day. He wasted 2 hours of my time loitering around in More than Words, cause he couldn't make up his mind about the gifts! Pft then we got bored, so we started playing with the toys there haha. I like the soft bears, they are comfy and... soft :-)

Friday : caught avatar with isabel, keith, joel, ervin and rey. It was an awesome movie! It rocks a hundred times more than twenty twelve man. However i don't think i would wna watch it again even if i had a free pass to, cause the movie's kinda complicating and wild. I like the action packed series though! :D (i rly wna find some time to movie with michelle. rly miss the level 4s like heaven)
After the movie, everyone had to go off real soon, so i trained to clarke quay and waited for the dg. And for the first time in my entire life! I AM 45 MIN EARLIER THAN EVERYONE ELSE YAYAY. when everyone arrived, we took off to yj's condo and gathered at the function room for some fellowship + sharing + food + drinks + jokes + talk talk @ pool side strictly for girls only! + song & caroling practice session + guys crap dancing & ridiculously loud singing (or rather shouting). We ended the night with freeze & melt and "runway for male models only" in and by the baby pool. Rather retarded and fag la, but it was great fun :D HAHAHAHAHA

Saturday : It was the real caroling thing @ kim's place. There were times of talk & gossip + lesser jokes cause seet wasn’t around + guitar + singing and caroling + great food + macs delivery cause we weren’t enough for the food available haha + sharing and testimonies + video watching + joy & laughter + piano + drums + slacking around in the living room + fooling around in the gym + guys crap dancing again + horrendously spastic lyrical actions from the guys during caroling + more!
It was a great time la :-) I rly wished everything did not pass so soon, then we could have even more fun :-) god rly blesses the dg and within mans, praise jesus. Gna trust god for even more and abundantly!

Sunday : service was not too bad. I didn’t rly catch anth though, but the performances and praise & worship was rly good. For jesus! Thank god tht wasn’t the last service of the year, other wise it’ll be a pity. After service, pearlyn, yj, jun and I went off for lunch without the rest at marina. Pizza hut is (Y) ftw! Hahaha, we had a rly long meal + a hell lot of talking, gossiping, sharing, etc. (L) it’s rly a blessing to knw tht god’s doing something great in your dg and changing His children in the midst lor. And god’s not stopping just here, He’s still working on it :-) awesome!

I’m currently in love with : Jesus my Everything by New Creation Church :-) reminds me god’s love. I’m gna grow in it and living in the truth (reign above all circumstances & heir of the world!) He has set for me! AMEN. Sweet and pure, I like that :-) haha cya!

bothered.

2009-12-13T02:57:00.000-08:00

My sunday, sucked big time. But i know god will make it up. Restore double of what's lost and let me enjoy myself in this coming blessed week Amen :-)

Camp was awesome~ Just too much revelations to post up here. It's just amazing la! The dg has been wonderful, and best of all besides all that good food, dg bonding, fun games, sun burns, girl talks, praise and worship, power packed sermons, DGT performances!!!, making of new friends, supper @ macs, loud cheers and shouts, spastic photographs and faces, funny and unglam moments during game time & meals, "shit overflowing" (hahaha inside joke), AND MUCH MORE. tonning the night was woots! Kimberly, nicholas and i were basically the only 3 survivors cause roy and yang juin couldnt hold on any longer when it was day break! Haha, god is awesome man. I really understand those 3 simple words now... Grace favour and blessings that is not just enough but overflowing! :D Praise goooooood 8)

Christmas shopping with ervin tomorrow... Sigh :'(

awesome god.

2009-12-03T04:25:00.000-08:00

It's been so so long since i last posted haha. How shingz! I know right. Oh wells!

For the past few days, i've been doing stuff like : dare + service on sunday with cool people + swimming & movie @ ashley's + sentosa with primary school pals + dg camp snuggle!!! where we did fun stuff like playing itouch and iphone games, gossip and joked a lot :D + bowling & movie with aaron @ marina + kidman, ervin and my dear lil brother's surprise birthday celebration @ sentosa! ...again + joey & little rachel coming to my place to play for several wednesdays + countless long conversations over phone with keith, joy, ian, ervin & rey about random and gayshit stuff HAHAHA + today........

And yes, talking about today... it has been one of the most horrible days of my holiday. Cause! I'm broke and stuck at home, when i should be outside with some friends! Doing cool fun amazing stuff like shopping, talk talk talk talking, coffee and chat @ starbucks, walk walk walking, screaming @ pretty items in the stores, eating! Oh lord. And tomorrow, what am i doing?!?!?! Oh! I'm going out but someone's treating me to a meal! Yumz + awesome~

What's more! EJ5 is next weeeeeeeeek!!!!!!!!!! I AM SO ULTRA LOOKING FORWARD TO IT cause i know i'm gonna receive a lot and i'm expecting a lot more in many aspects of my life IN GOD! amen! whooooo. What an amazing god!? :D cya readers! ♥

beautiful nightmares.

2009-11-20T07:43:00.000-08:00

Whoa it's been ages since i posted something for real. Besides my announcement to gng for dance camp lol.
Anyways here goes!

Last wednesday - i had dance in the morning then i headed down to bishan to meet li hong and sherrill after that. We trained down to bugis and shopped a lot! There were a lot of new items selling at bugis st now, i wanna go back again! Anyways after shopping, we went to the junction to pierce ear and had late lunch haha. Pix had unglam me in there :( but who cares! :D

Last thursday - i forgot wht i did but i think i think clare came to my place and we watched j's body online :) ordered canadian pizza, wedges and pepsi! Awesome meal haha. Fattening sia but it's okay! Once in a while :) the show rocks man but it's not very scary, it's just sexy and thrilling.

Last friday - oh! i remember now. I went to kong wai's place to learn guit but we ended up doing a lot of random stuff and it was fun! Haha i was taught how to play the drums and i taught kw to ballet! He looked super funny you should've seen it hahaha! We also had h2h and talked bout school, family, church, peers and a lot more. We watched and laughed and critisized (guilt guilt) the people who went for audition to american idol. Played the piano, bingo, and had a tough time deciding if we should go out to window shop or not cause we were getting too damn bored. Ultimately, we went out for a movie with his friends, shamir and clement :) nice people ya know. Caught my girlfriend is an agent. Great show! I like i like ^^V afterwards kw sent me home. Aw how sweet ;)

Last saturday - met clare and rachel by chance on my way to city hall (Y) headed down to food terrace for lunch with malcolm, kimb, xt and coach kev. Afterwards went for dare. I skipped pre svc and pretended to be a part of rsm haha. It was fun fun fun fun :) i miss sherlyn and pearlyn! After dare, dint join the dg. Pearlyn, sherlyn, jazlyn, jovial and i were at macs with jov's dg but we bused to dbg awhile later :) shopped a lil at dhoby with jov, before we trained home.

Sunday - english svc at expo was awesome! I really liked it a lot and thank god for kw. He persuaded me to go back to church other wise i wouldn't have received so much :) really felt so favoured and blessed and loved suddenly :) praise jesus mans. Had a lot of fun with the lvl 1s from EJ + celine, rey, ervin and wence :) fun poopies. Keith is so adorable! Anyway we trained down to changi to have lunch and played truth or dare. Great fellowship time mans. Aiya could've seen kw at expo then but he was serving so couldn't haha shucks.

Monday - went out to northpoint with jay. He bought me a dickies! So sweet mans :) and jay bought himself 4 pairs of coloured contacts. It's freaking cheap like 1 box for $28, buy 2 get 2 free. I wanna buy! And mommy said okay, so i'll be getting it soon! :D after that i trained to bishan without jay to meet clare and we shopped at bugis hehe. I was gng there to collect the pair of shoes i ordered lah, and clare was looking for a white top for some special lil something :) afterwards, homed lorr.

Tuesday - homed

Wednesday - dance camp till thursday. Camp was not bad afterall. I didn't expect the unexpected. Goes to show a lot of things happened there and i've learnt a lot so i'm kinda satisfied :) but i injured myself and that feeling sucks cause...

Friday - i couldn't freaking play with the class in the sea, or beach volleyball or any other games during the class outing @ ecp! I could only sit there and watch them play. While helping weiliang and earnest out with the bbq pit haha. But it's not bad luh, at least everyone was caring and kind enough to help me out since i can't walk properly or that much :) thank you peeps! I love ya all. Not much pix were taken i guess cause everyone was busy with everything else oh wells. We cycled and i had to hold my pee cause there was no bike i could borrow! Ugh haha wht a hassle. Anyways we had early dinner and the food was good. We stayed until night before i could finally use amanda's bike to the toilet which is so so so far away to clear my bladder and return the bike. On my way back ALONE (amanda and co had to rush home), i met earnest, clint, hansel, xt and clique. So hansel and clint kept me company while i waited for them to get changed out of their dirty wet clothes. Hansel bought me snack wrap from macs cause he knew i was starving! Wht a good friend! When it was about 9.15 i took the bus back with kerene and we had a lot to talk about :)

//THERE IS DARE TOMORROW YAY AND JOY ALLOWS ME TO JOIN THE CHOIR FOR PRACTICE AROUND NOON TOMORROW BUT SADLY, NOT SERVING CAUSE SHE WANTS ME TO GET USED TO THE CHOIR PRACTICE ROUTINE AGAIN FIRST, BEFORE I START SERVING AGAIN :) THANKS JOY I LOVE YOU HAHAHA SEE YA TOMORROW... whoever's reading this. CIAO~\\

yet another.

2009-11-17T07:15:00.001-08:00

I'm gng for dance camp tomorrow, and i will be back on thursday :D PATHETIC ITS JUST 2 GODDAMN DAYS ah whtever. God's gonna make the best out of it :)

DO ~~NOT~~ MISS ME OKAY POOPS CAUSE I KNOW I WILL ~~NOT~~ MISS YOU GUYS HAHAHA

And when i'm back i shall get some good rest and post about wht happened last wed till camp's over. Boo yah! Cya! ♥

Oh oh and i got into 3e4, poof. Chem and bio shitszx i'm gonna appeal for phy. I don't wanna take bio already. It leaves you with limited yet little choices for poly or whatsoever. Furthermore, upper sec bio's gonna be tough. Thank god i dint get into pure science class! Somehow, i just feel glad now. The next 2 years are gonna be awesome! With everything, all for His glory man. He will be my provider, my wisdom and let me make use of my subject combi and exams to glorify him!

It's gonna be a change mans! God will be my god when i need him. So gonna work it out and let him do his best for me! Blessing grace favour = GLORY!

yikes!

2009-11-10T01:54:00.000-08:00

On a lighter note...
A babe by the name of kim made me say this : YAY I HAD A LOT OF FUN WITH KIM YESTERDAY AT PLAZA SING HOORAY. (okay, then hooray part was what i added myself :B)

Cause i really did had fun :) THANK YOU BABE oh wells, aft we met at toa payoh we trained down -duh- and got to plaza sing asap. Our first destination : COTTON ON :D

There, we spent like about an hour haha. But we walked out of the shop with two pathetic piece of white shorts altogether. one for each haha. I bet we looked so retarded oh yes we did :) sigh but WHAT TO DO we're poor people! Hahaha eh noo, i shouldn't say tht cause in jesus name I'M RICH AMEN HAHAHA :D the stuff from cotton on really rocks my butt man :> kim and i are sooo gonna go back there with a hundred bucks and this time, come out of the shop with bags full of tops, shoes and bottoms! (psst amen)

Aftwards, we went to ripples to hunt for kim's optimum pair of slippers lol. But we decided not to buy already, I LIKE THAT GRAY PAIR OF RIPPLES SLIPPER YAY. but i'm not gonna get it :( cause mom have complained to me tht i've 15 pairs of shoes at home now, i cannot buy anymore shoes :( now, im saving up for a ipod touch :DDD

MOVIEEEEEED. caught imagine that. It's a very funny movie haha. However we initially wanted to watch jennifer's body but it's a friggin NC16 show. Pffffft :< so whatever, we sneaked into the theatre and caught a lil small part of the shoe and it's nice! Sigh but i guess i'll just have to watch it online with kim, the next time she comes over to my place :) it's creepy if you watch alone ya know... haha.

AND TODAY, i went to the starhub shop @ plaza sing with mom, to sign for a new phone SAMSUNG JET SAMSUNG JET SAMSUNG JET SAMSUNG JET SAMSUNG JET SAMSUNG JET i love you mommy. ~~W910i~~ GOOD BYE AND RIP :> though, i'll only be getting the new phone a few weeks later :(

toodles ~

p/s, ashry is so so so annoying haha!

cause i believe.

2009-11-05T04:00:00.000-08:00

I bought stephen home on tuesday! Thanks mom! :D
Managed to clarify a lot of doubts and kinda applied to SDT the other time at fort canning centre with jovy and cheryl :) it was fun at park mall! I wanna go back there again lol. I think we're gonna start class in dec or smth, yay.

YESTERDAY there was dance! yay. We did crunches and now my muscle aches pft. Going back to dance after so long feels weird, obviously and at first, i couldnt do straddle or other flexible stunts properly. anyways I SAW A MONKEY ITS NAME IS XINTIAN AND I MISS IT SO DEARLYYY. :( although i still hate it very much :)
and of course, everyone else :)))))

p/s, kim thinks i enjoy raping her -.- pffft

I went to jay's this afternoon to learn guitar. Didnt really wanna start learning songs just wanted to handle chords better. We ended up watching hot shot lol. It's a great show okaaaaaay.
Now, point is i have finished watching hot shot already and im so gonna watch it again BUT right after jay returns me the dvd series :D

Afterwards, i went off at around 4 and trained to orchard to send my phone in for repair. Ohh speaking of that, MY PHONE IS OFFICIALLY DAMAGED POOPIES. it cant on! gah, time i get a new phone yippee! But first i pray in jesus name that my phone will be well after the repair amen, then i can give my phone to aaron since he likes it :) and get myself a new phone YIPPEEEEEE now thats the main point hehehe.

I bought bread and gummy sweets mix & match at 7 eleven before meeting serene at orchard mrt! We headed off for dinner at toa payoh before we had to goooo. I'm gonna see her again on saturday. Whoo! lol but i have to give dg session + outing a miss then, pooof D:

//OKAYOKAYOKAYOKAYOKAY IM GONNA SEE WAFFLE TOMORROW I MISS EATING HER A LOT. CAI FAN YOU WATCH OUT HEHEHEHE AND YOU KNOW WHAT. HOT SHOT ROCKS YOUR BUTT. I LOVE YOU<3>

with hugs and kisses,

2009-10-30T05:10:00.000-07:00

Anyway, today was last day at school. It is definitely a wonderful, joyous thing and worth celebrating for but it's also an absolutely memorable day because you just cant help but gather round and snuggle with the rest of the class, or just sit in a huge circle in a empty space like what 2e2 did today and just TALK and crap.

We had a 1 hr long heart to heart session with the entire class and my "speech" was that, leaving primary school and leaving 2e2 is different because leaving lower sec was even more upsetting and hard to bear. It's just different DIFFERENT okay. I dont really know how to express my thoughts and feelings but i just know that i miss everybody from 2e2'09 very much and if i had a wish that could come true right now, i'd wish that 2e2 could promote to 3e2 together next year. And just stay that way until we graduate from gy.

It seems difficult to leave what has happened for the past 2 years and it's just something special that is hard to leave behind. It's like no matter where what who when why, we're just gna bring that box of old "news and memento" together with us because we know we are still gonna meet up and gather round or just have a 2e2 get-together after 2009, ocassionally.

With no doubt the class has been through fucking arguements, prejudices, judgements, conflicts and whatever shit together but after all we still see that we are one class and one huge family. And that makes up a whole different story again. It's really just 2e2 and 2e2 only. thats it and we're happy with it. Be it the words of others' mouths and their crude and unpleasant judgements upon us, we're still us and that's how we're gonna come together.

Just like when we played games together after school, during pe, how loud we talk across tables during recesses, ganging up against the sec 1s for gl-ing us, cheering and clapping aloud like mad dimwits for our mates who win prices, cheering one another on, and giving hugs because we know that's the only thing that will make us feel much better. - "one hug speaks a thousand words"

I REALLY LOVE 2E2'09 and all the bastard comments, crap, junk, stupidity, bullshits, nonsenses and troubles we spout out of our mouths and get into. whoosh now we're all gonna move on already. Oh wells!

XOXO, RACIA

and when you're fifteen,

2009-10-30T04:18:00.000-07:00

You should know who this is, it's TAYLOR LAUTNER whoo!

This lady is Selena Gomez :)

Selena when she's 12

This guy over at the bottom is : Ryan Reyolds

... And he is hawttt

I just finished watching The Proposal onlined and i think he's so damn cute, however he's too old for me! :(

I think selena is chio. I mean beyond chio. She's got that kinda sweet look! like wayyy cuter than taylor swift man.

And taylor lautner is just hot hot HOT. you cant get enough of his figure. LOL i sound sickoly wrong!

she's no you.

2009-10-28T04:49:00.000-07:00

Today's sports education program at school sucked.
We did archery and it was BORING. and so warm in the hall, what cheap.

Oh wells it was a short day at school though i find that only 1 tiny winy part of the archery process was fun, that was : when i gathered along with hao ran, xt, kimb, jan, jo, kenneth, hansel and jerico to talk about what we can do for the class bbq in november :D well at least that's better than being stuck at stoning. What a stupid hobby, pooof.

Dominic has a super adorable doggie and i love it yo, but i love jojo more! ^^V look at some of the pics i saved during ytd night's conv. Lol oh and and AND, gideon sng wei wen is helping me with guitar yay. now i've got 3 teachers! HAHAHA Omg, i miss jianle a lot right now... pfft she's so busy these days, aint able to meet :(

ANYWAY, pictures!

breathe your days ahead.

2009-10-26T00:14:00.000-07:00

Eeeeeeeeeeeek!

I feel like killing rachel zavior nowwwww. OMGGG
She was supposed to call me an hour ago so i can train to seng kang and meet her but i didnt receive a call from her! Meanwhile, i was in the midst of making the class video, searching copying pasting downloading and saving pictures of 2E2'09!

The most ridiculous thing was : she called me more than a kazillion times but i didnt receive a single call from 'rachel zavior' UGH.

ah forget it sigh, cheryl cannot make it today cause she has smth on, and jovial is holding on to a spoiled phone so we couldnt reach her. Thus today was a disaster. im stuck at home today but with smth new :) i switched laptops with aaron! Cause i can only make the video using his laptop.

Oh wells His Grace is enough for today. for the rest of the day, i shall go :

download MJ's This is it album songs!
watch a movie on the laptop
play the piano
eat cookies with milk
phone call with rachel
complete parts of the video by night
ring janice to discuss bout video
skip ropes

and whatever, i see what else there is to do :D gonna use my time wisely... hmm sounds like racia? nah it's ray motor! LOL never mind just random me again.

Pooooooof and i'm gone!

glorious is he who reigns.

2009-10-25T03:45:00.000-07:00

I'm lazy to post but oh wells,
I went for 1st svc with pearlyn hillsong united today. And i had my bowl of fishball noodle from food fountain after so long! I sat for svc at the rock auditorium after sooo long too. Feels different but whatever, i miss that comfy red chair and im gng back there next sunday! yay.

I liked i liked i liked ytd's lvl session it was awesome :) i saw wisely, he was invited by clement and caleb! Coolio, pray that he comes for dare soon Amen.

Today... I bought a top from cotton on! It's on sale! I'm gna buy buy buy some more! They have got high waist skirt at cheap prices too, yay yippee yay whee i'm gng bonkers over the sales! Muahaha, trust god for money money moonehs.

Okay now, i'm supposed to be skipping ropes today so that i will grow taller by next year, but i'm bored and lazy... i have no idea what to do! Oh wait, now i got it! I'm gng to play the piano and learn the new songs from Perfect Offering Yay. i'm so random :D

I'm supposed to be discussing with dad bout my streaming subjects but i aint gna do that. It'll just ruin the entire atmosphere. So, i'll just dump it aside and leave it rotting in my bag then fish it out again tomorrow. ah I'm wonderful.

I shall phone call with michelle or jianle tonight! I owe jianle one long chat. and myself one good rest :) going out with jovial and cheryl tomorrow, cant wait yo. This week's gna be blessed yet busy... Amen! Ohshit, i have to complete 3/4 of the class video by tomorrow night and show it to janice! :O

differences.

2009-10-22T06:52:00.001-07:00

I had a lot of fun today after school but let's just rewind back and start with monday :)

Monday : i cant recall what i did

Tuesday : nikolai had exams so richard and i couldnt go out with him or go to his place to play. And his home is soo super nice man D: nvm! Another time :) :) hence i stayed home to youtube. I watched The prince and the pauper Movie by dylan and cole sprouse! Come to think of it, i think i'm starting to like dylan more. I find him chubbier, funnier and more adorable! Apart of cole though, i think cole's more of a flirt and playboy.
Cause i spoke to, i suppose they are posers, 2 different cole sprouses over fb chatbox. The surprising thing is they came to speak to me first. And the both of them left me a very lousy impression of cole and i'm starting to detest his character more now... I don't understand why :(

Wednesday : learning journey to war memorial smth. I dont even know the names! but i think one of the 2 is URA. yes, we went there! And the trip was ultra amazing and satisfying :D praise jesus, initially i wanted to ton it but everything turned out not too bad ^^V
Sitting with kim on the bus is a really fun experience! And now, she calls me a rapist -.- cause she claims i keep "touching" her. (p.s, that's soo not true)
After school i trained down to orchard lido to watch julie and julia! All by my self (emo is not the word for it) though, it's a rather cool experience ha. I just wanted to try out since kim cmi last min, she left her wallet at home :) boomz.

Thursday : which is also today, i just realised. Got back all our papers for eoy's and i got Bs! not a single A1 or 2 D: so upsetting but at least i made quite a huge improvement from mid year's and ca. This time round i studied a lot yay. i'm so happy for myself. And thanks kenneth, i will praise god even though my results werent super duper wonderful.
After school, jerico and i stayed back with the ec (environmental champions) people and along with the other volunteers to set up the booth at 3rd level and play. It was literally half the class there. We started out playing monkey's ball since nobody visited the booth, then to Dog and Bone's when we realise there were enough people to play the game. It was super funny man! haha pix will be uploaded at fb 1st week of nov. Followed by other games, until it was 3.45 we packed up and left. I trained down to orchard to meet mom and to yishun by mrt with her about 7pm, to meet miss ong and get the shirts :)
We walked over to granny's and had dinner with her, grandpa, uncle raymond and aunty mary.

Trusting god for tomorrow. and the rest of the days ahead :)

P.s, sometimes being a social butterfly is always happier.
P.ss, i am never trusting people of the world ever again. how naive am i, i thought i could be right and retrive that friendship. but no, it's never gonna happen.

would you sing along?

2009-10-18T06:04:00.000-07:00

Thursday : i bought a pair of white with designs low-cut converse & blue high-cut converse!
They are cuteee ha. I like i like :)

Friday : my worst night eva D: i made a new and really gooood friend, but also a new but really lousssy friend.
I wished gan1 ma1 wasnt even sick so i could've just went for piano lessons + see jojo.
Jojo has some liver problem. Doc said she might just go any time so gan1 ma1 say, 'since she's still here, i should come often and visit her'... i'll miss jojo till then.

Saturday : moody mood. Skipped dg outing at cineleisure. it's just a freakin movie and i'd only rather go if somebody wasnt there -.- so god, if it's me, then change me if it's not my fault then change him. Because we are all on equal standings thus, no condemnation and no judgements :)

Today : church! Attended first svc with amanda. I saw many many manyyy familiar faces when i went up to the rock cause i had to sign up for ej! it's good to be back at church though :) but it aint that easy facing some people.
There is still this visible fear inside of me. I need god to rid of it for me. Amen :>
Come to think of it, i do miss quite a huge number of people after so long of not being in church... anyways! I bought the new album + piano song book today YAY.
I am sooo gonna purchase some more of pastor prince's and mark's sermons! they are super good yo. Anointed men of god luh :D

Now...... i need cashhh. Lots of cashhh, so that i can go shopping at cotton on, F21, mango, zara and many other shops! I need to get a new pencilcase and wallet from somewhere cool too! Help me Abba :D

P/s, i saw joel tay after so super long ha! he makes me laugh everytime i see him :D
P/ss, i saw pearlyn lim today! she is hawwttt ;D i miss her man. babe let's go out tgt some time soon!

san fernando valley ♥

2009-10-14T22:13:00.000-07:00

Came back from the neighbour's. I went over to play with lesley, he's so cute! But he drools alot tho :S he's only 3 and a half, and he looks so much like becky's dog! Lesley kissed me just now and i "ate" his fur, eee. Haha, i wna go eugene and joel's house some day to play with their doggys! :D

Anyways, will be gng out on a date with grandpa later YAY. fine dinner at restaurant and SHOPPING SHOPPING SHOPPING! whee, im gna buy new clothes and bottoms and hoodies and jay's present :) :)

Chatting with kim over the phone later instead, she's got lazinitis. Ain't gng out alrd :B im gna watch tv the entire day until grandpa comes to pick me up. And of course practice the piano and jump ropes to grow taller... Well, in case i do nothing else that would contribute to my boredom :/

And yay yay yay, triple yay. I dreamt of cole sprouse again last night :D :D :D
Tomorrow we're gna be receiving some of our eoy papers. It's gna be good news in jesus name! And here's smth i shared with bridgette! I think it's really cool ^^V

(Let's say it's the moment before we receive our results slips and there's this class with different religions and beliefs. So...)
In men's opinion : "I hope i did well for the exams. I wish i did better than average"
In god's opinion : "I WAS AWESOME. I AM SURE I DID WELL BECAUSE HIS WISDOM WAS MINE! AND I WAS CALLED TO REIGN ABOVE ALL OF MY CIRCUMSTANCES & EXAMS!!!"

What a revelation *thumbs up*. Pray that god will give out a fresh revelation for today, and let the word spread man. Oh one more thing, i wna go saint andrews to watch their school's rugby match yo.
And mommy allows me to fly to california alone after my o's to find cole sprouse! Ha, if you gave me a choice to act in any tv shows, i'd choose The Suite life on Deck and future shows that cole sprouse would be in! :D but kim thinks i might be over him by then alrd. We will see then ^^V

Toodles, peace out

this is our king.

2009-10-14T00:28:00.000-07:00

When i finally return back to church this sunday, IM SOO GONNA BUY THE PERFECT OFFERING CD + SONGBOOK! :D

I wanna serve! in the choir next dare on the 7th of nov! D: okay no sad faces, say amen! Jesus will let me serve! It's been soo long since i last served. March. Number of months unserved : 8 FREAKING MONTHS -.- oh wells.

- Joey's coming to my house to make sushi later, and we're gonna have girl talk :)
- Probably gng out with kim tmr...
- Friday school as per norm. We might be getting back some of our papers! (nail biting sensation lol) but no worries cause my victory was bought at the cross ald! And His promise to me : A1s all the way :D
- Facial at aunty gh's + shopping with mom @ orchard :D
- Sunday : CHURCHHHH wheee! I miss church sooo much! ★
- Going out shopping and eating and "hunting" with caifan on monday! Other wise, swimming at her place + dinner with moms!

famescape ftw.

2009-10-13T02:42:00.000-07:00

LOL. Aaron got his msn account just today so he was trying out. Hahaha then he started to webcam with amanda and then me.

Adorable lah :D and since his psle was over and my exams are uh, kinda over. Ha we got bored and webcam-ed and spoke over the monitor. HAHAHAHA

get a life racia.

2009-10-12T06:57:00.000-07:00

I've got an announcement :

I OWN A GREEEEN WATERBOTTLE YESTERDAY, TODAY, AND FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE UNTIL THE BOTTLE SPOILS :D

Life just gets busy after today ^^ ha! I wanna DG outing again! And DG shirtie! Whoo. Bye

planet earth.

2009-10-12T01:09:00.001-07:00

WHEEE all the heavy papers are down! And now left with oral and lc only! Hallelujah! :D

I've bought alot of new discs recently and just finish watching Deck the Halls on my laptop. It's so sweet and heartwarming lah! :D hehehe i wna go to a snowing country for my honeymoon next time! Amen! :P

Anyways now i'm gonna watch suite life on deck at youtube! Then go to sleep, a realll good sleep. I havent had one since ages hahaha :)

And tomorrow, i'm gonna make a LONG list outta what i wna do once my exams are OFFICIALLY OVER hoho. And dye my hair back brown again on 30th oct FINALLY. this time lighter than before :D oh and now, i can also concentrate on grade 6 practical ^^V I cant waitta go back to DANCE YAY. i wanna finish learning the steps for Fame and Danceworks '10!

Renwen and i have made a promise to ourselves that we'll do jumps 500 times a day so that we will grow taller by the next year AMEN. oh my gawd, there's so many things i wna post and so many things i wna do! Once the 2 month holiday starts, i think i'm gonna go bonkers. Hell yea!

Those 2 babes above are the Aldridge twins - Kelly Aldridge and Ashley Aldridge.
Kelly's the prettier one though, i just cant differentiate who's who for now. So if you wna know which is kelly aldridge? Guess :)

Toodles ~

we've been hiding enough.

2009-10-09T03:23:00.000-07:00

9 days since i last posted, wow. Ha anyway the exams have been pretty okay :)
I believe jesus was with me during my papers, and will always be! Oh wells, i'm left with 1 heavy paper and it's just oral and lc. Whoo!

I'm gonna gonna trust god trust god trust god baby baby, trust god. Lol -.- oh and after eoy, i can play till i fly whee! I cannot wait for EJ5! It's gonna be awesome :D a pity that amanda cant go :( other wise it'll be a super great experience for her aye! I'm gonna send in my passport photo later after piano! Yay me. And i'm gna see jojo again. Yay me! Hahah.

~~Tomorrow gotta skip lvl session again, gng out ta mug at bishan library. Sighh, it's good to know that malcolm understands :)~~ (COP. I'M GOING YAY)
btw on wednesday i : mugged at subway toa payoh with gitte, mich and ryan goh the lion. HAHAHA

Calling a babe to chat later. Shhh ^^ p.s, eoy exams are ending in 5 more days WHOOTS.

my redeemer lives!

2009-09-30T08:11:00.000-07:00

"Be not wise in your own eyes" (Proverbs 3:5-7)

God wants to hear us say, "Lord, I dont know how You're going to do this. I don't care how You do it. However You do it, I know it's going to be right. I can't do it anyway, so I'm not going to frustrate myself trying to figure out how I can do it, God. I trust all my circumstances to You. My times are in Your hands. Trusting You is my first priority in life."

In pursuit of Peace (God's Grace and Power)
"Tell people the good qualities you recognize in them; don't point out what you think they need to improve. Compliment, don't find fault. Accept, don't reject. Be positive, not negative. Be encouraging, not discouraging. You and I will never lack for friends if we will practice giving people the freedom to be themselves." - Pg 230

How difficult is it to let go of works and to trust God's grace to carry us where we want to go?

If we cannot let the grace of God work for us in small areas, we will never learn to let it work for us in the big ones. (good phrase)

Worry is the work of our flesh nd is unscriptural. Worry, reasoning, and frustration are internal types of work that do not please God.

I'm using blogger to glorify God. And i'm proud of it :D there's still more to share in the book, but i shall save for it other days :) i shall meditate on these few verses first :)
School has been very busy. Countdown: 5 days to eoy exams! Wow thats really quick i just realised. Lol but nvm! Trust in the lord and not worry or be frustrated with men's works! Oh jesus jesus, shower your favour grace and blessing unto me Amen :D

saviour king.

2009-09-23T02:53:00.001-07:00

Uh my eyes aint working properly today.
I thought i saw HUGE LIZARDS on the parade ground today after school when they were actually so called guns the np people were using during their trng. Lol.

Later needa mug for chinese test D: assessment books go into the fire! Rah. Still got chinese compo to chiong. OH THIS IS SADISTIC. God help me. And i'm leaving tmr and the rest of this week in your hands, it shall be blessed and i shall be soo favoured by everyone i meet and not lose my patience at anybody. Ya know what i mean ;) love you jesus ♥

Oh yes and today's photo taking was fun :D

dance with me.

2009-09-22T03:16:00.000-07:00

Today school was fun. But i was feelin' very sleepy especially during eng and mother tongue. Lol. Eng: i was bored to tears (seriously)

Thank goodness we didnt have to stay back eventually for math + hist and for me, science. Cause i wanna get help from mrs goh with the new topic so i can also prepare myself for the test and exam :)
Now i'm gna go bathe soon and mug for hist :/ siannn. It's okay! Jesus will make it fun and interesting for me and bless the test for me Amen!

Qianying came back to singapore to visit me at my place. Shucks i werent being a very good host just now but she didnt mind, thanks girl. Oh and we're supposed to meet for dinner tomorrow but everyone is busy with their own stuff, hopefully i can change piano to sat instead of friday. Then we can dinner on friday night before her flight back to australia! :) Yay me :B

Tomorrow after school, i'm gonna get home asap and do some assessments for chinese, math and science! Amen! So as to prepare for the chinese test on thurs, doing the chinese assessment book i just bought should help (thumbs up). Kk ciao.

yahweh is the best :D

2009-09-21T07:14:00.000-07:00

From jochebel khong:
"Favour is upon you man :)
Don't feel condemned by whatever she says. His blood has redeemed you from it :)
Whatever she says is not true. The devil is attacking you from using your teacher."

And i say YES AMEN!
Now i shall go back to school tmr with a spirit of Wisdom and a heart for learning through His glory and honour :D school is fun with Jesus my Wisdom! Amen! I cannot wait to return to school yeaaa! :D

Credits to bel, and all the glory to YAHWEH :)

god's blessings will hunt you down!

2009-09-21T06:56:00.001-07:00

The flea on saturday wasnt very successful though. But it was very fun! Though the super saaad thing was my mom lost 100+ bucks that we earned. Shhhht :/

Oh well, god will multiply 5 TIMES of what that is lost Amen! :D
And i was happy last night cause i spoke to cheryl after such a looong time and i missed her very much :) :) :) i'm glad god changed her and i will too cause of my identity in christ yo!

I spent 3 hrs studying science today. The chapter i felt super pekchek with, sighh. I pray that god will bless me and over the subjects i'm learning. My exams are gonna be a fun and exciting ride! I shall come outta the tunnel with a wide smile on my face knowing i did well. Amen Amen :)

I was also feeling very condemned about what a teacher told me at school last week. She said to me that i was a stupid girl and i am definitely making my way down to the normal stream at the rate i'm going. I'm not a very smart student she said.
I was extremely bothered by what she told me and it distracted me out of studying the subject i used to love.
But i know that god is for me and He will always be. He is the same today, yesterday and forever. I'm the righteousness of god in christ and He is the only person who shall have the last say (Y) "do not let anything of the devil to push you away from your path of righteousness" "you who believe in the lord, is the conqueror of all things and you are called to reign above all your circumstances!"

I'm gonna keep on meditating and believing on those 2 verses and trusting in Abba for the Wisdom (Jesus) and the abundance of favour with my teachers and school mates :) "anything that is NOT from jesus is NOT a blessing" Amen!

This week is called to be a blessed and highly favoured week for me and all new crea people! Whoo! (Y)(Y) Amanda is so loved and she rocks a million man, she's a babe! :)

AMANDA SIAW WEI MIN:
Thanks for being sucha wonderful pal. I love you!
And i know you do too, haha. All the best for eoys and thanks for everything la!
Knowing you is a blessing and this blessing shall not run away from me,
in fact it will chase me down in jesus name Amen! :D

made in god's image :)

2009-09-20T06:09:00.000-07:00

I really wanna change my skin after eoys man.
Anyway the word today was damn goood, i can use it to apply unto my studies! Whoo, god is good :)

- I'm made in God's image and i'm beautiful cause jesus is.
- Jesus = Wisdom and wisdom lives in me! It is infinite and it's victorious :)
- I'm left with 17 more days to eoy, no. of victory man! :D
- Leave my problems with jesus, He will make all things well and fall into place.
etc.

I was mad late so i couldnt make it for 1st service, i went for 2nd with michelle instead.

After church, we went to the food place for lunch and started studying at 2.30 i guess. Lysander, gideon loh and bridgette came to join us later. I did math practices for 2hrs and i'm so happy with me!
Gideon left the earliest but we slowly left afterwards, michelle and i came across percious thots and went in to take a look. I decided to get jay's present there since the gifts there were nice :) now i'm left with his last pressie and i'm intending to get him a ___ bleah i'm not that dumb to say it here! Haha.

Trained home.
Now i gotta ask god for Wisdom upon my studies & results, and to choose between the subjects i'm taking next year. And hi monster, i'm sooo not getting into NA next year cause whatever that's not from god, is not a blessing. God wants me to get into the top 3E class in 2010 & I WILL AMEN. What i become and what class i get into next year, it's not up to you to decide :)

Yay, 3E here i come! Tomorrow i'm gonna chiong hist and science, then do practices for math and go for math tuition in the evening. Wow, busy schedule but i will trust god and He will multiply time for me! Amen & byee :D

hands lifted to glorify him.

2009-09-18T06:35:00.000-07:00

YAY. Blogger's back to its tip top posisi. Hahaha, oh well the week has been very busy for me and the class i'm sure.

Monday was super favoured monday. It was music period, i told mr gan that i emailed to him my super dued project over hotmail instead of saving into his project folder and he said ITS ALRIGHT. He didnt even reprimand me for handing up my work late, wow. And the rest of the days are just learning periods which were fruitful and i did not feel lethargic. Whoo!

The day before monday, sunday obviously, i slept past 12 to study 听写 but we werent tested on monday eventually cause only 3 pathetic souls in the class studied and it included me! Ha so cool right, i actually studied for chinese spelling :D oh well, probably god knows i'm gonna score even better if it's tested on another day AMEN. Peace out woot. Blah blah blah, and tuition after school. Miss lim allowed amanda, rw and i to skip math supp cause our math tuition was starting at 3. I also had to skip dance D: oh wells!

Tuesday was freakier, and i forgot why. Lol. Science was kinda okey dokey, except that the new topic's freaking me out. I need to save my ass, i gotta find mrs goh one day after school to help me "let go" of that phobia. Lol i musttt ace this topic and prove everyone wrong! :) AMEN.
-- And piano at night. Jojo bathed! And she smelled great so i gave her a kiss and she was happy, she wacked her tail. Haha :D

Wednesday was fun! I think i think cause there was dance! And it was the last dance prac before the stand down as it was gonna be eoy. I cannot wait for ccas to resume again! Whoo, then i can finish learning the dance steps for fame & hopefully (with fingers crossed), get selected for dance works '10! Yayy, amen!

Thursday we had science test and it was manageble cause i studied! And god made it easier than i imagined :) so just leave the rest to god, cause i'm over and done with this test for now. I'm gonna focus and practise more on my math now cause His A1 is gonna be mine! Amen!
-- And because there was math post holiday test the next day, i studied and did practices on math till 3am in the morning! Lol, but thank goodness i had a 4 and half hr nap in the afternoon. I only woke up at 8.30pm and had late dinner. Haha cause i was super duper exhausted from school since i've been sleeping late for the past few days :(

Friday we did the paper on the first 2 math period, it was 10 looong questions. Some were tough but still manageable. Somehow it was just His given grace lor, cause i never gave up and i kept on going :) :) GRACE fully, i will reign over this paper and not disappoint my parents or miss lim anymore! Cause i'm His righteouness and His beloved, i can do it yah!
It was a short day at school though, miss tan didnt appear at school so we had 3 free periods and half the class (index 20 to 39) stayed in class while the other half went down to the kitchen to bake banana cupcakes! Amanda's was yummyyy. It was very fun staying in class cause half the class gathered round 5 tables and we started playing truth or dare! It was super funny okay, haha the forfeits were ridiculous and sick.

And then i was kinda like "the alerter" cause when i saw mrs goh, the first thing i said was: "mrs goh alert, she's coming!" then kim grabbed her science textbook and opened it, so did i. And wenqi hid the sweet drink bottle under the desk, then everybody started speaking to one another bout the topic we touched on recently. HAHAHA so funny then when mrs goh came in, ryan suddenly said: "it's vascular ah, rmb okay" to hao ran. Lolll.
-- After school, we went to amanda's for lunch before we headed off for tuition. It was fruitful and i managed to cover up on my misunderstandings for simutaneous equations! Whoo.

i gotta feeling.

2009-09-14T03:27:00.000-07:00

I went for lvl session with kimb and amanda! We met at orchard around 12.30 and lunched at food republic. The food there was so yummy, we're sooo going back again to eat there next lvl session :) :) the unfortunate things that day were, xintian cmi D: and the pathetic had only 4 youths who went and they were me, kimb, amanda and pearlyn. And cause she was serving, we met her at relc later at 2.

I nvr regretted gng for lvl session cause the Word was meaningful and awesome yo. It's about putting jesus as our centre piece and all other commitments will just fall into piece. Eg, we have commitments such as family, shopping, cca, studies, movies, fb, and etc but without the centre piece, things will just get old and boring. And nothing will be done well and we will not be fed (with the word of god) well. Also, when we are bored, use the internet wisely for it's god's glory and honour. We dont use it for pornography or other rubbish stuff like bgr, we can actually use the internet to listen to sermon, download it and visit the zone website & etc, when we're bored. Feed ourselves with the word and seeee more of jesus! :D like that we wont get bored already. Coolio!

After lvl session, bused back to orchard mrt with the sexy trio. While waiting for bus, kimb was superrr cute and retarded. HAHAHA she was telling pearlyn all bout the Orphan cause amanda and i told her bout it before lvl session & while waiting aimlessly at the mrt for the rest of the dg to come but soon found out they werent coming -.- Lol, and then kimb doesnt get the whole storyline well so she kept on looking at amanda and i to ask like: what happen next ah? HAHAHA so adorable laaa :D see kimb! I'm saying that you're cute! (amen) pearlyn kept on complaining to me that kimb's being very funny and retarded cause she went like: see see, very scary horrr. in that creepy tone. HAHAHAHA so hilarious!

Afterwards, kimb left first so pearlyn, amanda and i just walked around at wisma. So boringgg i'm sick of that place. If i go there, i'm only gng there for the face shop, cotton on & f21. Full stop, so jesus, spare me with moolahs! $$$ wth okay.

I'm looking forward to next lvl session cause i cmi for dare this week :( i'm like forever not showing up on dare luh, cause imma busy lady. Ha, but it's okay! TRUST GOD WHOOO. He's more than enough! I'm gonna take what's mine MUAHAHAHA.

And now, i'm not gna be lazy anymore. I'm gna upload the albums onto fb, i ought to do this looong looong agooo. Oh! Ya hear that? The cow's sounding! MOOOOOOO. HAHAHAHA i'm just random ^^v School's gna be greattt and better better better each day, AMEN. Ciao.

sweet dreams or beautiful nightmares.

2009-09-11T06:59:00.000-07:00

★ < i like i like this star, so cute :)

Anw i'm lazy to bitch about kenneth chia here, haha. I'd rather save my breath, time and energy :D I can save my fingers for better things to do :) like srsly. Hahah dexter and amanda would know why ^^V

Anyway, there is level session tmr and i'm going! For the first time! Haha i'm so happy, i cant wait to go! :D oh and today was awesome! I went out to study at national library with rw and amanda.
We arranged to meet at toa payoh, 12.30 pm but everyone was late. Lol, so coincidentally i met amanda on 163. Haha then we bused to the station to meet rw, and trained to bugis together. While we were on our way there, we bought lunch from fei xiong at the junction and walked pass bugis street. And that's where i met this super duper cuteee ang moh guy who's around my age and height :D :D :D OMG HE IS FUCKING HOT TTM. I LOVE HIM HAHAHA.(beware: racia yoong is going boy crazy at 101% speed)

But it's sad to say that i couldnt go over to him and say: hi. HAHAHA and ask for his name, age, school, address, cca, email and number. Lol shoot it. But he looks more like ang moh-chinese luh, oh wells. If God has predestined us to meet in the capacity of friends, then we'll meet. Amen :) hahah.

Got to the library and ate our packaged lunch at outside the cafe. All 3 of us forgot to bring jacket and it was freezing cold there, so i said: congradulations, welcome to the north pole of singapore! HAHA but it was a great time spent there cause i managed to self study history! But didnt have the time to do math cause i kept on rushing amanda and rw to go back to bugis st cause i wanted to look for that cute ang moh guy :B he is really cute okay, i cant help it! HAHAHA.

When we got to bugis st, i bought the clothes i was looking for and i saw many other lovely clothings that i wanna buy! But bo cash D: well it's ok it's alright cause God shall spare me with more than enough money after eoy AMEN. Then i can come back bugis shop like crazy and no one would care! :D then can go elsewhere to shop like crazy too, AMEN. Oh yeaaah! :) :) then hopefully i can meet that cute ang moh guy again some day :)

Ok ok i shall stop right here, cause i need to send some email to yee chiu regarding the chinese project and do a lil bit of school work. Ciao.

daryl's better-than-awesome birthday celebration!

2009-09-09T03:36:00.000-07:00

I'm back so soon! Cause i've got ALOT ALOT ALOT to post about yesterday. IT WAS VERY GOOOOOOD! BETTER THAN AWESOME! So here goes,

(1) Met xt, kimb and sher at sgoon station by 2. Took 315 to sgono gardens and had macs for lunch. Pearlyn joined us afterwards. By 3, we're done eating and head to cold storage where pearlyn bought daryl pretty looking strawberries. And then bought cake at some B shop name :B seet and roy found us there. So we all paid for the cake and went off to daryl's place.

(2) When we got there, we sneaked to his back door and left the cake in the fridge at the backyard kitchen. Camwhored a hell load at the living room! HAHAHA very fun! We did super retarded jump shots and spastic candid's :D while the guys went out to macs to get food. Left little zeph at home and he was sooo anti-girls, he didnt wanna talk to us until xt and pearlyn spoke to him. Haha he didnt like me! D: i dont like him too! HMPH.

(3) When the guys came back, we chatted at the garden and was disturbed by the 2 dogs living next door. We all kpo, went out to see and seet and i kept on arguing on who's the one scaring the dogs. Haha then the dogs barked super loud! Noisy enough yet seet just had to go bark back at them and made them mad and barked louder -.- then went up to daryl's room to play. Chua and i stayed downstairs and listened to mp3. Haha then the nutty people upstairs held daryl down and used his phone to text weird dumb stupid mushy msgs to me. HAHAHA poor daryl, also tio :/ then wence came! Haha yo buddy.

(4) Got to daryl's room and watched wonder gays. Haha then wence was acting gay again. So we played and played then took dg shots! Hahah wow, daryl and seet's head soo BIG LAH. Block our faces (on purpose!) Haha, they claim those were "jump shots". Lol.

(5) We then decided to go downstairs and play water bomb. While wence and i had h2h, pearlyn joined in afterwards. It was cool (thumbs up) :D you guys rock okay! H2h for about an hour? Ha then it was time we had bbq and dinner! :D

(6) At the backyard kitc, xt and i lied to daryl "hey daryl, we forgot to buy the cake leh". Shh, then daryl soo nice said it was okay. Then we were all excited for the foooood! And finally, yang juin came. He only freaking came for the food lah! HAHAHAHA and only pearlyn was excited for the strawberries she bought. Haha it was supposed to be for daryl and it was too tempting, she kept on telling us that she wanna eat those strawberries.

(7) Dinner was very yummy! Tho i only had eaten 1 pizza :( so delicious! I wanna eat it again next time! :D then seet kept on encouraging zeph to drink the drink? Haha but he wasnt supposed to cause zeph has cough and there was a pinch of volka in the drink. Lol. After that we went for night walk!

(8) Walked along the roads in worthing and kensington road or something, then got to the end of the private estates and came upon this very dark alley. Super scary lah, we all ran for our lives HAHAHA. Finally we arrived at the playground. The swing was fun! :) snapped shots and etc then we started playing random games like tryna push one another off the bars? Haha. Afterwards, kimb xt pearlyn sher and i told the guys we'd go back first cause we needed to pee. In actuality, we went back to get the cake out and prepare it before daryl came back. The guys knew bout the plan so they just pretended to play with daryl at the spider web thingy.

(9) On our way back, kimb xt and i held hands super tightly cause we were super scared. Ahaha then kimb said "aiya we should've called the guys to come back with us! Now i'm so scared haha". Lol then we suggested to sing church songs to feel better and secured. So pearlyn started singing one song from the new album, faith+hope+love. Forgot what song then xt was like "sing one happy and lively song that we all know!" So we started singing Yesterday, Today, Forever You're the Same & Run & Tell the World & some cheers we'd do during dare like "hey jesus you're so fine, you're so fine you blow my mind. hey jesus hey hey! hey jesus hey hey!" hahah awesome! :D then we edited Run cause we got too tired from running. HAHAHA it become "so we will jump" & "we will hop". HAHAHAHA then we jumped tgt at "JESUSSSS!"

(10) And finally! We got to daryl's house after that long walk. Super long okay, so hallelujah! :P hurridly ran to the back and got the cake out. Wence was being our "guard on lookout" before daryl gets back. Haha but we couldnt get the candles to lit up asap cause there was wind. Then daryl almost spot the cake haha but thank goodness he didnt. Cause he was too damn thirsty, we ran to the backyard kitc to get himself a drink. Lol. Afterwards when we finally got the candles lit up, we assembled at the piano room and wence was in charge of so called "holding daryl down" before they both entered the room and we sang him the happy birthday song :D

(11) When the candles were blown out, cut cake!

(12) After the cake, we got back into the piano room and played dare or double-dare. Haha so funny. The arrow kept on shooting at daryl then the guys dared him to do alot of gross stuff. Ha. Roy kena then he had to call ___ to tell her that he loved her and had to include his name, age, ministry and dg. HAHA then it was chua's turn he had to call charmaine. Chua didnt have the guts to say it so seet helped him "hi hi er, btw nicholas chua wants to tell you that he loves you and nice talking to you so bye" HAHAHA then charm replied to seet "wtf was that all about" LOL!

(13) After playing several rounds, time we headed back. Left daryl's and bought frolicks! :D got to the bus stop at 11. Lol. And we took the wrong bus. Haha so we got down and took the bus from the opposite side, it had to loop. Waste trip -.- but the bus driver was the same guy and he was very nice, he laughed at us when he saw us again and we laughed back at him. Lol then xt said "uncle, uncle no need pay lah, we no need pay again lah" then he said "ok lah, you all dont need to tap your card again" WOAH. favour sia! :D haha then on the bus, everyone was super exhausted alr so we just talked a lil and prayed to get to sgoon station asap.

(14) Bye everyone! Circle lined home with xt :) then bused home, mom was waiting for me at the bus stoppie.

Conclusion: Yesterday was the bestttt time i had spent with the dg! After so long i've never been to dare or lvl sessions, i missed them lots okay! Now i've gotten to bond with them, Jesus made it a really fruitful one :)

knock you down.

2009-09-09T03:16:00.000-07:00

Monday was good. I went out to meet yee chiu at lorong 1 outside macs around noon time to buy goodies for the xiao lao shi project. But i went to get macs for aaron and myself lunch first :D then we headed down to the blocks to buy the candies and snacks, goodie bags and buy my uniform!

After that, we got to my place to complete the rest of the work without amanda. Cause she was at bangkok D: oh well. We finished everything by 4 plus.

And today, i went back to school super early in the morning > 8AM. To meet amanda, yee chiu and ms tew to discuss the xiao lao shi presentation before the supp class started at 9. Blah blah blah, supp class next. Everything ended at noon.
J8-ed with rw and amanda. Lunched at deli, then we went down to macs cause i had to meet miss ong (dance instructor from RnM). Done and trained to orchard.

Caught Aliens in the Attic. Initially we wanted to watch The Time Traveler's Wife, but the movie only starts earliest at 4 and it was only 2.35 then. Lol, so we decided to watch the earliest movie then and it was that show. Lol, i relunctantly want to watch it. Simply trusted God to make the movie a good and worthwhile one. And miraculously, it turned out to be so! :D AWESOMEE, hahah.

The show is freaking hilarious. The flies are soo real. Hahah you wouldn't know what i mean until you watch it :)
Anyway, the show is just great and very funny. Got down to wisma after that, and honestly speaking, the only good places at wisma are Forever 21, Cotton on and Starbucks. Ha. So it was kinda boring. Decided to bounce home instead.

I'm exhausted now.

leave out all the rest.

2009-09-04T06:01:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow:
Not going for connect already. Why: family issues and i need to chiong studies alr. (neh mind, trust god!) :D

From today onwards:
I've lost my trust in her. I'm not trusting her anymore. We can no longer be best of friends like before already.

Since today morning:
I found a new reason to live! For my mother :) i love her and i dont wanna upset or disappoint her anymore. I'm not gonna let her down or go against her anymore. Jesus, You will do it with me cause i'm not alone! Amen :)

Last words (sept hols):
1) I'm going for 2nd on sunday (with mom i hope), other wise with rachel.
2) I'm gonna miss amanda cos she's going to thailand :(
3) I'm gonna chiong my maths! With jesussss! :D
4) I'm gonna fulfil all my own promises for the sept hols! (secretie)
5) I'm gonna spend time with family more often!
6) I'm gonna finish packing my things by monday night :)

I think that's about it. Oh yea! Gotta chiong TWO chinese project within the holiday D: but i can do it with jesus one! :) and study hist, science, math and home econ! :D :D
And school was quite good. Had alot of fun cleaning the school with ryan and gang. HAHAHA and i couldn't lunch with weiliang and co today cos i had to do work discussion :( pity. But it's ok! There's always another time! The new term's gonna be the beginning of a new start for me!

I CAN DO IT WITH JESUSSSSSS WOOOOHOOOO! HE NEVER FAILS ME RIGHT AMANDA? :D

shout awesome!

2009-09-02T01:41:00.000-07:00

I'M AT CAIFAN = MUSHROOM'S HSE NOW! HI TO ALL EARTHLINGS.

Today was rather screwed and wild. Lol. My phone and kenneth's phone was confiscated during free period. Which is still equals to curriculum hour lah but it was free period! AH. Anw xintian was involved in this phone confiscating thing so the 3 of us went to look for dm after school. We freaking waited for him for 45 mins man :( but ultimately he still didnt return us back our phones and we could only get our parents to claim it lol. Just say it: IT'S PATHETIC. Oh well i'm just gonna ask mom to fetch me to school tmr to collect my phone from mr goh :) :)

And now, cause my phone aint with me, i've to unknowingly cancel the movie date i arranged with caifan, kong wai and eugene D: D: D:
I didnt even get to inform them cos i forgot their numbers -.- HAHAHA so suddenly i rmb mushroom's home number then i decided to call her. So she called to go over to her place instead (p/s, she herself also forgot bout this date. hahaha)
Damn, now i feel so guilty cos i couldnt contact kw or anything D: well anw, i left school with janice and josephine then we talked super lot about lower sec life tgt and other stuff. Haha so memorable :)

56-ed to toa payoh hub. Bought bread for caifan and her mom :D seee i'm so good. Anw school was good! I was favoured man, tho didnt really learn much at school today :( but there'll still be more learning opportunities tmr! :D
And... caifan laughed super loud and crazy when i talked to her bout me and lihong prank calling nick kek in primary 6 using pei chun's private phone booth! HAHAHA freaking amusing. You guys should've heard the way he responded! Hahaha :P but it's alright lah, what's more, he's only primary 6 HELLO. ;D

His mercy saved me.

2009-08-30T06:29:00.000-07:00

While time is moving, as things are passing. Everything's changing, so is people.

You can be happy with your own company and your own friends, I won't have to do it your way anymore and i'm happy about that.
It really seems like it's a sudden stop to eveything and to this friendship. But it doesn't seem upsetting or anything anymore, it just seems like nothing. Cause i'm happy with who i am today and who i'm with. At least those friends don't despise me and order me to do things i don't like.

I am contented with how things are going on now. I'm trusting Yahweh for more and i'm gonna ask it from Him :) He will give me whatever i want and whatever i ask for! Amen :) I will grow and change from glory to glory, Amen!

It is probably a resting point for us and reflect on what we've been through before, what we've said and what we've done.
Sometimes i just cannot help but doubt my trust in you. That trust just doesn't lie anymore, it's faded away. I do wanna gain back that trust for this friendship but i cannot.
It's like everytime i know something goes wrong and i wanna know why, i wanna ask you about it. But i just cannot bring myself to cos you are my friend and a friend i don't wanna hurt. Most of the time when you hurt a friend, you end up losing them. So it ain't eay telling them how you feel. It just doesn't seem like it for me to use words and speak it out to people. I rather keep it to myself and let God understand everything.

I may be wronged and faulted by many, but so what? This is my attitude. To some it may be lousy or bad or alright, but i just cannot be bothered by what the world says. It feels different now, and my eyes are only towards Yahweh. It's like He's my only hope to Salvation, Refuge, Restoration, Guidance, Comfort and Rest. The things happening around me now doesn't really matter anymore. It's just such a cool sensation.

It's as though i'm in a place on earth, standing in a spot light and head lifted up. The only face or thing i see is Jesus' beautiful face. And the lovely blue sky covering every thing else. Then suddenly those saddening images show up but they flash pass. 2000 years ago, what Yeshuah has been through and what the full price of His blood He paid for me and the world. That generosity that i will not even shed for anyone, not even my own child in the future.

Afterwards, it's just WOAH. "IT IS FINISHED!" Jesus exclaimed! The torturous experience, so hurtful man, He did it for me already. So that i will experience what Jesus has been through. Not even the slightest pain near to what He has gone through. So awesome :) "And upon saying, He bowed down His head. He gave up (dismissed) His spirit." God is so wonderful.

when love takes over.

2009-08-29T05:35:00.000-07:00

This week was short man. Seems like it passed so quickly. Lol, anw yesterday was good! :D but i'll start with wednesday first.

There was no dance, so i met nurul after school, since a long long time to study and have lunch together <3 We cabbed down to Wisma, lunched at starbucks. The food was soo great. I wanna eat there again :P after studying a lil, we headed down to S.H.O.P.P.I.N.G. :) :)
I wanna spend a million bucks at Forever 21! The clothes there rock. And i wanna buy lotsa pretty dresses and tops and bottoms from Max & More Cotton On! :D God spare me with more than enough cash Amen! :P forever 21's tank tops is (Y)(Y)(Y).
Afterwards, we walked over to Ion. Window shop shop. The stuff there are, ordinary i guess. I only think that several shops such as Zara and Mango sell really nice wears. And then we trained to marina and bounced back home. Hahah. (p/s, i'm running tight in cash now cos i keep on spending it aimlessly :S trust god for extra pocket money.)

I stayed back on thursday after school with a few others to clarify doubts with science. I finally understand Digestion in Human Beings. Hahaha, now i pray that i can apply what i know in questions Amen :) after that, i headed home to self study! Good right.

Friday was the most fruitful one. Was supposed to study back after school with amanda and renwen to study science and history with kinyong, but. We were very lazy :P so decided to go home instead, since at night we were having math tuition. We might as well meet earlier for dinner and study :D :D So i met amanda at toa payoh hub later in the afternoon. We settled our dinner at pizza hut and the food was awesome! Did a lil bit of studying there, i helped amanda with math :D i'm intelligent cos His wisdom is on me Amen! :D :D :D

Tuition was fruitful. Renwen decided not to come cos she didnt wanna miss the last episode of he favourite tv program which consisted of 100 over episodes. Lol, amanda said she was very auntie! HAHAHA i think she's just being a little girl afterall :) Ah, anw i finally can differentiate the different set notations alr! YAY.

Today was boring. I went for dance prac + rehearsal in the morning. At 12.35, we were dismissed and i went over to j8 with novita and jovial to settle lunch. Ate at Yoshinoya (Y) good stuff. Hahah, i took more than an hr to eat then the other 2 were constantly staring at me and complaining. HAHA, sorry guys! Oh well, we had a really good talk haha. I hope we can have this again soon! :D but perhaps after exams since now's the 'busy period' for the whole school. Sighh.

After lunch, we walked about j8 aimlessly. Haha despite the pain under our feets (danced too hard, lol). I SAW A DICKIES BACKPACK FOR 39.90 ONLY. I WANT! AND I SAW A NICE CUTE LITTLE POUCH FROM COTTON ON. I WANT. AND AND A SMALL HANDY FROM LEATHER ATRIUM. ROCKS. AND VCDS! 6.50 CHEAP DEALS.
OMG LOL. I sound like i'm advertising already. HAHAHA. Ok lah, so you get the point okay. Hahaha.
Then we settled down at Mos cos we were too damn freaking exhausting from walking. Haha and we met jeremy and jun hao there. HAHAHA. Jun hao seem like he got a shock of his life when i BOO-ED HIM. HAHAHA.

Kk enough. I'm going to do my hw now :) calling rachel afterwards yo. Gng for 2nd with jovial, amanda and rachel tmr :) then studying at plaza sing + shopping at j8! I'M GOING BACK TO BUY WHAT'S MINE. HAHAHA :B
Bye!

never the same.

2009-08-25T07:20:00.000-07:00

School has been pretty okay so far. It's gonna be better than last week AMEN. I 'fought' and had a huge arguement w kenneth again today. Lol but like always lah. I came back from piano lesson not long ago. I had my grade 5 practical ystd, scary luh. It was at kovan so michelle and bridgette<3 were really nice to keep me company for that few hours and prayed for me :D

After the exam, we basically went to study at mac yup.

I found back my inspiration to play the piano again. So awesome. I actually didnt wanna go today since my exam was ystd, so no point right. I just went to mdm ng's place to pay fees and learn outside pieces. Lol. But she allowed me to choose several score sheets so she could play and let me listen. And for me to give it a shot XD IT WAS ULTIMATE COOL TTM. She played this chinese song which threw me back the determination to play well and hard enough to progress myself in the following grades :) God's plan-table. Cool right :D

There were alot of usual moments that happened at school today, after recess.
Before lit, kenneth kept on playing w kimb and xt then renwen and i had to shout for him before he heard us to get into groups. Lol.
Math: Ms lim was kinda unhappy w our class behaviour and attitude. We had to complete this workshop or course that took up 4 periods of math and technically, it was sucky. Bullshit was the word to use. (hansel said so) Lol but srsly, it was a freaking waste of time. What we did then will not even be tasted for exams, so it's like what the shit are we doing then? Afterwards, a classlist that was supposed to be passed down the class went missing. Everybody was just bochap when ms lim asked where the paper went. So when ms lim attitude, the whole class was like 'ORH OKOK, people, let's just find the paper lah'.

English: "Students never fail to get the poo poo out of me every year." Means we're very irritating, and we irritate the crap out of the teachers. Especially mr ko, cos he said it. Lol. "Example, i will still ge irritated by kenneth. Goose (angus) will keep saying stupid things. Edmund will keep giving me incomplete work, and..." then clint interrupted: "Eh mr ko! Then me leh me leh!?" LOL.
And then mr ko also said: "Idk why but i treat this class very good lor." then earnest and kenneth proclaimed: "Cos we rock and cos we're so likeable." Hahaha :B
After that, mr ko went through vocab, just explained what rheumatism meant then kenneth busy talking to earnest. When mr ko went back to that word again, kenneth randomly asked: "What's that" HAHAHA. Tsk, rats. Got such small ears, no wonder dont listen during class. HAHAHA. Then kenneth made a 'gun' using a pen and a correction tape refiller and shot me. Then he shot beiting and said: "Ah ha! This gun can either shoot you or scratch you."
Mr ko said sb wrote the meaning for a compre vocab word as eg, 1. Amicably: (cannot find in dictionary) & he said he started laughing to himself at the paper. HAHAHA. Also, he say many students like to give 'indirect meanings' for vocab. Eg, Deterrent: to deter sth. Lol then hansel say: "mr ko, maybe that one china dictionary, haha." then everybody look @ haoran but he busy looking at his mirror. ZILIAN. LOL. So mr ko was like "haoran, if you want you can go beat hansel up." and for the first time haoran so 'kind' replied: "huh? Aiya nvm lah." Lol. He said that cos he obviously didnt know what was happening. And then i laughed until my face become lobster red, followed by jen kuang. He slowest to react, then mr ko told jen kuang: "Er, jen kuang, you quite slow hor." Lol.

MR KO IS OFFICIALLY SPASTIC. DUH. OMG HUMOROUS GUY.

Ok, i wanna go sleep. Will post again TOODLES :D

picture not perfect.

2009-08-22T05:42:00.000-07:00

Sorry i cant be perfect but i will try and change.

I wont be going to church tmr and i wont be appearing in church for a period of time. I have my reasons i guess but dont try asking. No point.
I'll probably only go for dare events but not very regularly. Just want to spend time with the dg now. And leave everyone else aside. The end.

his glory appears :)

2009-08-21T00:08:00.000-07:00

This week has been blessed and really good! I actually dreaded coming back to school on sunday night, but God is really good :) He surpasses my expections cos this week has been really fun! But i'm trusting for more :D Woah, His love really doesn't fail me man.

This week at school, i accidentally hit kerene's * then i told beiting, and she said: "It's alright. You should eat the tofu while it's hot." LOL. And angus was being sarcastic as usual, when jen kuang hit his dick. "Jen kuang! You ok or not. Still got father's day mah?" Lol. Monday we had dance! So fun :) looking forward to next dance class yo.

Tuesday or something, we were given this english compre to do in class. It was on Venice and i teared while reading it cos it was way too boring. Lol, seriously man. Half of 1st para i alr yawned god-knows how many times, by the time i got to the 3rd para, i teared alr lol.

Then kenneth kept on oh my god-ing durnig cheena lesson. I told him to 'oh my god u head lah!' HAHAHA then we laughed super loud. Shh, inside joke.

On thursday, we had this relief teacher to take us for cme. No offence, but she does look really weird. Physically. Lol :P the class freaking made alot of noise then she couldn't take it, she started using cheena to talk to us but the class didnt really cared or listened to her. Everybody started shouting: "Sorry, we dont understand what you're saying. We're all english speaking people." then zhi sheng said out loud: "我不会讲华语。" HAHAHAHA!
Afterwards in the afternoon, we went to kenneth's place to do history project. The food was really awesome :) i love the nuggets and ribena! :P kenneth freaking gay please. I simply took a unglam pic of him, he kept on complaining and threatening me not to post it on fb otherwise he'd post my unglam shots lol. Like, whatever i dont even care and he cares lol. After that i took a shot of him and renwen, showed it to him and he said: "Omg i look so sissy but just post it." Me: "Huh? But why." Kenneth: "Cos i look nice." And then kenneth, being the laziest and clumsiet at the project work, took some chips and dipped them in ketchup sauce -.- wow. After he realised, he went like: Ah! I forgot i thought these were my nuggets! Hahaha!" He actually laughed at himself. Lol.

School was a long day yesterday.
Today was short and simple. Nothing much happened tho. Did coursework again during home econ, to prepare for practical exam cos next fri was it. Stayed back for about an hour to finish some history discussion then i was ready to head home! :) this week is super duper tiring. Alot happened, and the weekends are gna be super duper busy for me. Just pray for the best on monday at my piano practical amen! :D

Amanda's at my hse now. Gna go for tuition tgt later. Renwen's coming along too YAY. Today is a good day :)
Gna get my contacts on sunday before thirds svc :( dont wanna get it man. But cant help it lah, cos my contacts ran out and i need them for dance performances.
P/s, skipping dg session tmr again. Busy w studying and lots of sch work :X plus tmr got facial appt at night? Lol.

Kk ciao.

everything's changing.

2009-08-17T05:02:00.000-07:00

I'm believing for a change. Change for the better.
And He shall make my desires and visions come to past because He loves me way too much that God wants to give me an abundance of everything :) amen!

Was really glad i decided to return to church yesterday as i needed a revelation. The feeling just hit me so strong, i knew something good was gonna happen so i persisted on going back for svc.
Indeed, God never failed me. The sermon was what i needed. Condemnation is the barrier that is stopping me from a step closer to Jesus. It kills and it robs. The Truth (Jesus) shall set me free from all condemnation for He so loved the world :D

Still trusting God for more and overflooding of favour. This coming week is called to be blessed and i shall do exremely well for my tests! Amen amen!

the rope is tearing.

2009-08-15T01:11:00.000-07:00

I've been eating alot of flour (bread) these 2 days. Wow, so amusing right?
I've the sudden strong urge to go back to SDT to learn ballet. It was donkey years ago since i really learnt ballet man. Oh well.

I was told to rest at home this weekend and not go to church. So i skipped dare today and am gna skip sunday svc tmr. So don't be surprised or wonder why i didn't turn up at church yup.
Since so much has happened, i should just park my car at one corner and take a drink. I shouldn't let those oncoming cars to keep driving towards my direction. My ugly situations may not be countless but they really seem microscopic, nobody seem to really be able to see what i'm going through. Perhaps it's just me. I just don't tell other people how i'm feeling everytime and my problematic matters. I can really love my friends but sometimes i just cannot stand them. I just don't find peace in telling them my problems and my emotions, that feeling is really a pain in the axx. Screwed.

These days i really cannot control myself. What i do. What i think. My intentions. My emotions. My feelings.
And then i start to reveal my ugly truth. I feel like i'm stuck in between everybody's expectations, comments, contradictions, corrections, judgements and stories. They are shooting at me and i cannot escape! I feel very lost and tired, i just dont know how to run away from all these anymore. And worst of all, i feel that i'm drifting further and further away from church.

Just like mid week, i went but i cannot get into the mood of worshipping the Father. And i keep getting angry over the smallest thing possible at my best and closest friends. Why do my close and good friends always tio by my moodswing. Wl, i really dont wanna treat them this way luh. And when they are trying their best to help me feel better and happier, i turn them down all the time. I feel so damn bastard. But i just cannot wear off all these hindering problems that keep on coming against me.

In addition, my eoy and streaming exams are very very near. I'm bombarded w so many common tests this coming week and i've to keep focus and start studying. I'm beginning to neglect my studies! I really need Him to salvage me and keep me under the shadow of His safe and secure Wings man. I really need Him to guide me what to do next that is right. I really really need God so badly.

Why is everybody going against me and shooting more and more arrows at me at this point of time! I'm tired of life. I wanna give up already but it's not possible. I'll ruin everything in a blink of an eye within my own hands.
God, change me please. Change and turn every (temporial) ugly situation for my good please. I really cannot take the wheel on my own anymore.

let go and let god.

2009-08-14T00:17:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was damn bastard. I wasted hours of my precious time at mid week then didn't receive anything. Stupid. I don't blame the svc or pastor lawrence. I blame myself and some bastard people over there last night.
Their attitude is srsly retarded and childish, freaking insensible and infuriating. Don't know how their parents teach them. Come to church for the complete wrong reason, shit you group of tards.

School is getting even more and more tedious and stressful. Gotta do so much project work and school work. More tests to study for, revision for every subject at the same time. Really alot to balance man. I can't do it anymore man, i desperately need God. I really gotta let go of the stirring wheel and let Him take it. Other wise i'll just get into a huge accident or crash, then i'll die and it's the end of me. "Even the best falls down sometimes" applies alot.

Anyway, school today was the best amongst the other 4 days. At least it didn't feel unawesome, hahah. Did mainly coursework for last 3 periods during home econ today, honestly it was kinda fun cos i enjoy doing research and coursework :P at least better than cooking! OMG cooking's the killer for me. And then we're gna having practical exam on the 28th, i've to cook alone w/o renwen! Ah die. But it's alright trust God :D He will be my guidance and give me supernatural intelligence, efficiency and boldness to cook! Amen :D :D

Today after school, stayed at the school library to do some history stuff w josephine, janice, kimb, xt and renwen. Left the 'crowd' earlier for lunch at interchange w renwen, dylan and weiliang. Hahaha ate at koufu! My awesome kway chap! (thumbs up*) then bought bread talk for family breakfast tmr :) Ate till super full, oh wells.

Got lotta hw to complete for the weekend, revision and studying for tests + doing hist mind map! Yay i think i'll only be enjoying doing that :B cos history rocks! <3 kk later got math tuition, bye bye.

P/s, pray that saturday and sunday can go church amen! Shhh :P

my faith is shaking.

2009-08-11T03:12:00.000-07:00

I finally understand the feeling of breaking down.
When the bottle cracks into pieces, they are sharp and they cut you real hard, it is painful, it does hurt alot.
And that feeling completely sucks.

I received my most horrible results today, it doesn't just apply for my tests results but my relationship between people. I don't understand, do people who always bottle up their feelings until a limit when they cannot take it any longer, get easily fed up with anyone even their friends?

I really hate it that way and i don't wanna be angry with **, she's a really good friend and i don't wanna lose her. But sometimes she just don't understand how i feel and i just don't know how to let out my emotions and feelings to the world. I may want to but i just don't know how cos it ain't easy for me.

I prayed that today would marvellous and awesome but it turned out so awful. I'm not gonna lose faith in God, i'm gonna keep on pushing cos all that's happening right now is a catch up. The freaking devil is trying to catch up with me and my blessings but i know it's not gonna happen cos my blessings are alr there, they aren't able to run away from me! Amen!

my bottle nearly cracked.

2009-08-10T05:40:00.000-07:00

Today was exhausting.
And so is trying to take your hands on everything by self.

Just when you think everything will still look the best, it actually isn't cos it starts to show through myself. The completely filled bottle will not spill or tumble, it will start to crack and then it breaks down. Just like my heart and me.
My life is His forever, He take it all, He controls my life, and i shall let Him do whatever He wants with it.

Though many things turn out this way but i know it's part of His plan for me. And i know He knows every little information about what's gna happen next and what's gna happen tomorrow. But whatever it is, He's always gna be there and He's never gna leave me. I lay down my life for You Jesus, You picked it up and You're making it well. You will make every worse situation turn out the best and the most remarkable.

I just can't do these on my own, i'm leaving it to You. You will take it all and handle them good and proper. And then you will return it to me, in tip top position. Thank You Father, i really do love You. And i wanna worship and keep on praising You all my life cos my life is Yours and You saved it.

I may be unhappy with a hypocritical bastard living by my side, but i know it's not gna affect me, it's gna help me cos You'll turn all things around for my good because of Your Glory. You Glorious God, thanks for loving me so much that sometimes i just can't receive all at a shot :D

I'm not by my own, i'm with You. And i'm gna go do my zuo wen now, You shall give me the inspiration to think and write, the strength to stay awake and keep my mind working. I call this week and the following weeks blessed in Jesus Mighty Name :) Amen.

look to god.

2009-08-08T07:04:00.000-07:00

I'm just gonna dump everything aside, big or small, large or little.
Now i will only look to Him.

It was that 30 kg cross and when His glory appears, and that Light of the Sun.
We see Salvation. God is for us and He will never forsake me!

It's glory to Him and Him only. Only He can assure every little moment for me, only He can provide me with what i need, only He can produce the best for me.
I'm well with Him. I commit my everything, my soul and spirit to Him.

I will walk with You for all my days, there's no greater Love than this.
You are the Author and the Way.

This is the sound of the Redeemed, and we sing to praise the Saviour.
:)

JESUS I LOVE YOU MUCH MORE!

too little too late.

2009-08-07T04:39:00.000-07:00

Had the sudden urge to say this.

I FEEL SO DEPRIVED OF BUYING SOLID COLOURED HOODIES RIGHT NOWWW! :D :P
Multiple colours yes! - Green (kinda ew but :P), orange, red, grey, white! Maybe more, heheh! I dream too much alr luh :P

Kk bye bye, gna watch zack & cody now :B

we the redeemed.

2009-08-07T04:10:00.000-07:00

Today was good, but not that perfect or anything. Oh wells!
Anyway i returned back to school after 2 days of mc. It was shitty staying at home on your birthday, especially when you're sick that's why you can't go out :(
But today's outing was quite okay lah. I don't mean the beach thingy, the meeting church peeps part :P sorry jay! But you're a greattt friend k! :D :D :D serious!

Oh fyi, the class movie date was cancelled cos last min alot ppl couldnt attend. Idk why but everybody seems really busy this week but not me :B feels super weird. but anyway,
School > East coast to do cip > back to school > toa payoh > city hall > tampines > tampines 1 + century sq > orchard > bishan > home!

Got to school and met kenneth outside general office! Yay hahah. Good thing to start the day okay :) then after the super long morning assembly, went back to our classes and by 9, we set off on the bus to east coast. The cip activity was super tiring okay, sweat really like pig lor, under the scorching sun. Omg can die :S but it was quite enjoyable lah, with the class mah :D got more bonding time tgt.
You might wonder why we do cip activity to celebrate national day right? While other schools get to sit in the halls or auditoriums to celebrate it :( ah but it's okay, still fun i guess. Anw, we got back to school bout 11 plus then went to the class and locker for awhile before heading off to tp. Gotta change outta my stinky pe tee then train to city hall to meet jay. I almost wanted to kill him! Made me wait for him for 20 mins! >:)

We then trained to tampines to look for my dickies backpack but couldn't find it. So it was quite a pity lah cos we went till very far. But it's okay, god will restore amen! :D then we went for lunch and trained back to orchard to meet joce and laogong. & on our way back, jay produced a patch. A super nice one but it's our little secret :P hahaha!
When we got to orchard, it was alr 4 plus so joce & laogong had to go back >:( wllll. Your damn b*tch sia hahah :P kk lah but we still spent awhile walking at wisma then had to go alr, so left jay wandering there alone. Omg omg omg i feel damn bastard but i'm forgiven and there's therefore now no more condemnation amen! :D sorry girlfriend really sorry :B
Trained to bishan with joce, had a really good talk with her bout * heheh, shh. Won't say :D

Bought mac for dinner as soon as we got to bishan :) wow i seem to have ate alot of fatty food today, feel v condemned :P but be condemnation-free yay :D hahaha! Trust god trust god :P anw, 57-ed home and today was a great day! Tho richard last min had tuition, couldn't join us. Nikolai had doreen's party to attend for, which he forgotten about -.- (the forever forgetful dude lah :B), dominic also had another bday party to go, joel couldnt go cos he wasnt allowed to, donatus had to finish his dnt project, wow. Alot of people and alot of reasons lah but it's okay, still got monday :D yippee!

Kk tmr not gng for lvl session alr, saded lah :( i wanna go man! But i cant, cos got lotsa work to do and catching up. Need to study and revise my work, + this coming week's gna be test-filled lah, guaranteed one but just pray that He'll make it a fruitful and awesome one luh! Amen :D :D :D

Bye yooo!

hate blogger ttm!

2009-08-06T11:55:00.000-07:00

I just typed out a super good, long revelation about my God.
Great, blogger is bullshit, it just deleted my post out of nowhere. Supposing it would be saved under draft, it turned out to not be that way.

Sometimes you just can't help but be really angry over this. Ugh.
Forget it, i need God to restore me. And possibly, return me that awesome post. Amen.

forever yahweh.

2009-08-05T01:01:00.000-07:00

Screw my cough.
It is taken away, Amen! :D Woah, i wanna go school today man but sick. So can't :( then kenneth super funny last night. I was in a freaking lousy mood then used alot of profanities towards daryl lah. Sorry man, i know you understand one :) After piano, kenneth msg me say, "You should go and read your blog post, it was funny.. You must have taken 10 hrs to post your recent post right? Cos pigs don't have fingers! Hahaha!" He's so lame, omg. But everytime i'm unhappy, kenneth always cheers me up with his oh-so lame craps. Thank you dude! I mean, rat.

I just realised that tmr's my birthday. Yay! And i fell sick. Har, nice -.-
Anyway, i will go back to school tmr amen! I hope i can receive lotsa pressies! And wishes and warm hugs from people! Hahaha :D And am gng out with some people tmr after school ^^ think cheryl, donatus, dominic, joel, nikolai and and and, idk who. I forget forget :S and hopefully the movie outing on friday with school peeps is gonna be awesome and successful! :) A-men!
Oh! And eoy exams are coming real soon :O 1 and a half more month only. Yay, can't wait. Once it's over there's gna be so much things i wanna do! Go out with friends, shopping, slacking, gng to the beach, class outings, dg outings, long chats with friends, visiting of friends houses, movies marathon! And so much more, woohoooo! God's gonna hand me awesome jesus results! 7As A-men!!! :D :D :D

P/s. Daryl, just shut up. I know you're very concerned about my problems but i don't want anyone to care. I will care for myself and i know what to do. God's for me i know. You're a nice and caring gentleman. But you're too over insensitive. When i tell you not to worry for me, i mean it. Just leave me alone and shut up, you'll be saving me alot of trouble. Sorry for being so harsh and mean, but i just need the peace of God for now. And when it's right again, i'll talk to you. But it's not now. So just quit worrying and worry bout urself first. Thanks.

*I guess justin's right. I shouldn't put myself under so much pressure and mug like siao everyday. Even tho streaming's really important for me, but there's still sec 3 and 4. I either do too much or too little. But i don't wanna do just average, i wanna do really well. So that i won't have to disappoint anyone anymore. When i did too little last semester, it was not enough and i got my F9s. And when i do too much, i'm afraid it'll be too late and i've been tiring myself out these weeks so much.
I srsly need to calm down and do what i like to do. But there are so many buts and howevers. I'm scared that once i loosen up a bit, it'll end up being too much then i neglect study time and work. If i don't, i'll keep having bad sleeps and little rest and then i get too tensed up.
I need God's salvation in this area man. I just dk how to do it on my own lah. God save me, just help me. I need to depend on Your Grace. When i seeked You for the love for studying, You gave me more than enough. And now idk how to use it properly and i kept on using it like it's not infinite and may run out anytime. I wanna enjoy studying and then see awesome results but i don't wanna sweat and stress. I wanna peace out man.

Aiya, i'm leaving these in God's hands already lah. Need to Rest :) bye.

mighty to save

2009-08-03T02:00:00.000-07:00

Oh shoot, blogger is still crapping away.
Why isn't this blogger problem fixed? I wanna upload pix yknow, and it's gonna be so overdued ald. Aiya tsk.

Anyway i had to skip dance today cos i had my period. What a nice timing to come. Dance finally resumed, i was anticipating it, and then it had to come last night. My tumtum had super bad cramps today morning till now, so miss lim told me to rest at home :) yippee hahah :P
Ohwells, morning assembly resumed at the parade ground today. It sucks. All the time -.- Hahahaha. However, it didn't turn out that bad :) School was really fun. I was still as sleepy as ever during classes but prolly this time was diff cos of the period -.- tsk being girls can be really troublesome at times luh.
Kenneth called me SE-VEN times during class today within O-NE period. First time he called: (obviously i didn't pick up) i turned around and he did some dumb handsign - "Can you follow me to the bubble tea shop later?" I ignored. Second time: I turned around and he kept begging me to follow him. I ignored. Third time: I turned around and he was begging me in some weird manner like how you pray in a temple. Hahah! I signalled: Shut up! Fourth time: I turned around, he wasn't there at his seat ald. Weird, so i turned back round and he appeared in front of me. Scared the shit of out my life can? Lol. "Please please please? Go with me after school lah, pig." "No idw. I very lazy." And then fifth time: I turned around and signalled: What the hell do you want!? And kenneth showed me a 'P' using his fingers, which obviously represents = pig. Funny -.- The last 2 times, he did it for fun cos when i turned back, he was happily laughing away. Idiot, hahaha!
Woah, and i hate moodswings okay. Just cos of the stupid stupid stupid cramp, i got myself fed up with xintian and some others. I feel super bastard man, but they understood :) Thanks guys, love yall<3 And a good way to relieve ur stess would be colouring blank papers with bright lovely colours! My chia 'psychiatrist' taught me :D
Oh and kenneth and xintian kept on throwing paper balls to me. And in one of rat's paper ball wrote: Just follow me to the shop lah! I don't care, you have to come! I've alot of things to tell you, like how i'm going to cut you up and eat you!" HAHAHA!

Oh yeah, i had to give dare a miss on saturday cos had caught up with something else :) Had this karaoke birthday celebration session with family and relatives and some of mom's friends. It was like all adults there, and only caifan = chicken muffin was there with me. Hahaha but we had a really really good talk man. Chicken muffin! God is for you and not against you okay? Trust Him, He never fails you! :) And He will never forsake nor abandon you, cos you're His beloved princess and you're a prisoner of Hope! :D :D :D

Church on sunday. Joce i love you to bits! Thanks for doing so much for me, tho the celebration wasn't very successful or turned out the way all of us expected it to be, but i was really happy yesterday :) Especially last night kay. And dominic, thanks ah. For ur presents :B Why go tell me all of them cost 1buck?! Hahah, give me some hope mah. Lol. Oh wells, thank you all those poopies who turned up yesterday! I really appreciate what yall did for me :) :) Yes! Anyway, i love the presents a heaven lot o'lay! :B Especially pearlyn! Yes you woman! You babe! I love your card okay, tho it was really simple but i love it the most, really man :D I know ur gonna be super happy when you see what i posted right? Haha, i wanna see you soon lah! :D :D And sherlyn you siao woman! Where have you been? (you mia for so long luh, tsk D:)

I'm looking forward to this weekend again! Yay. I wanna go lvl session! I wanna spend time with davids! Yay yay yay. So fun, i miss my dg, cos i missed dare! :( hahahah, i wanna go sunday (national day) svc with davids too! Yay yay and more yay. Hahah wanna spend more good times with them! :)

Kk i'm gonna go do my work now, and mug :D Cos i didn't mug yesterday night when i came home :( but there's therefore now no condemnation! Condemnation-free life rocks, woohoo! Alot of work to do man. But God's awesome! And mugging's gonna be easy with Him yeah! :D

zero to hero.

2009-07-31T04:51:00.000-07:00

Forgot to add.

Applied anointing oil last night before i slept, cos i seeked god to multiply my rest as tho it was 10 hrs of sleep instead of 5 :) :)
1.13 am to 6 am mah. Our god is an awesome god, He reigns from heaven above with wisdom, power and love! \m/
And indeed, i could wake up as early as 5.35 am instead of 6! And felt really refreshed and energized, i didn't sleep during lessons too! :D Even tho most of the time i do, despite consuming longer hrs of sleep. Seeee, He's so goood! :D :D :D

Anyway, i'm not gonna let some psychopathic jackass freak idiotic noob like him to affect my mood and my days from now onwards. Cos it's simple that we know, HE DOESNT CONTROL MY LIFE NOR ME. And he's no rights to spout nonsense about me and my friends which only makes himself look more pathetic and freaking lame. Fxck off lah you b*tch. Y'think you're so great? Puhlease, your hairdo is like shit. Your body proportion is like poop. Your voice is no dfference from a guy who doesn't know how to speak properly and go around saying alien languages like: ah gu gu gu.

Don't whatever me if you don't know how to use the right words at the right time. God gave you a mouth and intelligent brain, you take for granted is it. If you don't want it, i'll teach you. Be a kind soul and do random deeds such as, walk into the house kitchen, look for a chopper or sharp knife, and slice ur head open. Take out the skull and smash it on the floor. Search for the brain and take a cab down to the woodbrigde and donate it.

Oh shot. I just realised, by the time you slice ur head with the knife, you'd already be dead. Opps.
And this is what i call cool sarcasm. You don't have to act, cos no matter how hard to try, you still look like an idiot. And acting beng, doesn't make you anyone, anywhere better :) thanks very much.

when you go too far.

2009-07-31T04:23:00.000-07:00

School was really good! :D Prayers are awesome man! Anointing oil the besttt :)

Last night i slept at about 1 plus, same as amanda. Hahaha we managed to finish the home econ project yesterday. Yay :D It was my first time staying up for so late and long to mug and do school work, wakaka. I'm proud of myself hahah! :B

Anyway today, nothing much happened. But i finally learnt how to make a burger myself during home econ! Yay, and it's tasty eh :) :)
It looks kinda gross and messy tho. Lol. After school, walked to the bubble tea shop with kenneth and renwen, then got to bishan to train to outram to meet cheryl laogong! <3
We didn't wanna catch a movie already, so it was then -> Movie to shopping at plaza sing + bugis :D :D I was so kind kind kind enough to wait for laogong at outram for 45 whole mins okay! OMG. Wl hahaha, but nvm lah, next time let her wait for me luh :B Anyway, eat Mos at plaza sing then shopped around before we decided to go off to bugis to shop for cheryl's orange top. She needed it for rs tmr, hahah and i needed a top to go with for dare tmr. Yay :D OH, i cannot wait for dare! I know there's somebody else who's more excited than i am! ->>> CHIA MONKEY WOMAN. Hahahaha!

Ohwells, cos we couldn't find anything below cheryl's budget, we decided to go somewhere else and we managed to buy tops at a cheap rate in bugis! Haha, okay i sound kinda random and lame, but so what man ^^V anyway, i'm gonna call laogong now, so i shall end off here.

Toodies peeeeps,
hoepfully church tmr will restore my lost and helplessness, amen.

love you jesus!

2009-07-30T06:18:00.000-07:00

I may not fully know god's heart for me,
but for sure i know He wants to give me the best and much more! Amen amen amen :D :D :D :D :D
And He never fails me. It was His great love that finished it all, so that now i won't have to suffer as much as He did before.
Even when i turned my back against His beautiful affliction and face, He still ran to me and called me His beloved, His son :)
:D

HARHO.
Chionging home econ project now. Dateline's tmr :O but it's alright cos god will multiply time and Rest for me! Yay.
I'm just happy that there's no school today cos it's elearning. Hahah, and tuition today was awesome :) So glad i went back after so long. Was super busy with dance in the past man. But god let me go back for tuition at the right time, right place :D

Tmr's gonna be another great day :D Amen! And the day after that will be dare! Mom's gonna let me go and also sunday svc, amen! :)
Also another busy day cos i'm gonna,
1. Learn many new things at school
2. Finally learn how to cook during home econ :P
3. Movie with cheryl laogong!
4. Go jogging in the early evening
5. Do music project
6. And maybe study science! :D

Yay me, yay jesus! All glory and honour to Him luh.
Okey dokey, gotta go back to my work now. :D :D

CIAO POOPS. ^^

empty talk.

2009-07-29T03:02:00.000-07:00

Today dance was cancelled.

Took history, english and math tests today. And i think i'm giving up math.
Surely the test was so damn screwed lah. I don' even bother to finish the test, i just nil-ed the questions i didn't wanna do and idk how to do and can't be bothered to think. I always skip math lesson. Even if i can't ton it, i'd do something else to kill time. The teacher doesn't care, so why should i? But i don't care a shit, and idk why i'm behaving like that.
I honestly don't want to. But idk what to do now to help myself already. Given up. I gave myself up on math. Shit.

Okay,
the end.

all i need is you.

2009-07-27T04:24:00.000-07:00

Screw blogger.
~~Screw~~ homework >:)
~~Screw~~ school.

Today was awesome at school man! School was srsly good man. Really all glory to jesus luh :D
Grace grace, i didn't bring my science prac book today and our class was told to go to prac lab. And the sound of it is obvious that we're gonna do practical right? But we only did the experiments and not the workbook :O It was 2 periods of science some more, usually would have more time to do work, butttt surprisingly we had to restrict the time cos of the many things we needed to do!
So i was damn save-my-ass lah! :D And then, we're supposed to stay back after school for science supp at the lab. Like again, i know -.- but when janice went up to ask mrs goh about staying back for science supp, mrs goh completely forgotten abt it said: "Huh? What science supp? Aiya cannot lah, i'm going to be late if we have a class. Tomorrow lah, tomorrow lah!"
WOW MAN. Flooding abundance of grace luh! So cool please. Jesus rocks my life!

Anyway i've got alot alot of homework today. So much to the extend that i've to pon dance :( well besides, mr adam also didn't come, so what's the point of going for dance today anyways? :B but i'll definitely go on wednesday's practice! Cos i miss adam, and he's coming back :D hahaha!

Ohweeelll, homework for today isn't gonna kill me cos god's multiply my time and rest :D amen! I'm so excited for school tmr and the day after and the day after after and elearning on thurs and the day after after after elearning! Woohhoo. God's an amazing god man! :) Lalala, and i love xintian and pearlyn to the max max max max pavilion! :D Oh yes and my wonderful awesome birthday is just next week! :O i cannot wait man! It's gonna be so awesome cos god said so and planned so already! Looking forward to the weekends now.

Hopefully, the teachers would give very very little homework on friday then i can complete them asap! And then mommy will allow me to go dare on sat and sunday svc :D Yay. Free cheers for piggy racia! *smiles widely.

tear down the walls.

2009-07-26T04:05:00.000-07:00

WOAH. The Zone ah, was awesome man!
No. It's more than just awesome! It was incredible! :D
Super fun! After the whole 3 hr concert, i was still very hyper yayyy.

Anyway, the day was long. It started out with me waking up super early, like at 6.30 AM. -.- Got changed and all, then left the hse and took the bus to the interchange.
Trained to potong pasir to meet kimb. And she was late. Well not exactly late but late in waking up. She wa supposed to wake up at 7. Haha, then i kept calling her but couldn't get through the line.
So dear kimb woke up at 8 instead and rushed to the mrt stn to meet me so as to pass me kongwai's zone tix :) and grace grace, i was late cos the train was delayed. So she was earlier than me. Lol.

Afterwards, trained to city hall first and met jovy. Vivian was super duper late, omg i almost wanted to kill herrr. So poor jochebel had to wait for her for 35 min at bishan. But i the most pathetic one lah, waited for all of them for 1 and a half hr. Thanks very much ah :(
9.40 we trained to tanah merah to meet some poops then trained to changi to meet the rest. First thing when we got there: big joel was playing with the luggage carts with amos -.- going up and down the slopes. Yay them. tsk.

And then we left off for T2 to have our breakfast. Yum. Mac! Dapao-ed and nice nice uncle jerome gave me and viv a good ride on the cart to the escalator before we went down to the train stn :D afterwards, waited for some people before we boarded the train. And off we went to expo! :)

Met some divo peeps and malcolm. My dg was late -.- wow. But nvm, we went ahead for hall 9 while malcolm and the rest ate at subway.
Waited waited waited then finally my dg came! Yay. I missed pearlyn and charmaine! And we could go in for conference already :)
Got seats, conference started at 1. Super cool lah, 3 sermons in 1. And the pianist from hillsong united freaking cute! x) the drummer looks freaking cool lah! I love drummers, i think they're damn cool. Yowww :S
Pastor judah smith's preaching was really simple to understand luh :) very very good. (Y) thumbs up!

After the workshop, had 3-4 hrs of waiting time. And xintian and kimb was late! Aiya, kenneth i don't care lah, hee :) But still met them in the hall afterwards :D yay.
Concert started at 7. OMG. I became high at about 4 or 5 plus. Went high with nikolai and jochebel, then kept jumping and galloping lika horse :B woah, damn embarrass sia. But fun luh.
AND. The Zone concert was awesome awesome awesome ttmaxmaxmaxmax! :D :D :D
It was jesus cool lah! Not super, very, really, so, extremely, extraordinary, freaking, fking but JESUS cool man!
I'm SO looking forward to The Zone '10! Woohoo awesome!

The music was blasting out loud. Sounded like my heartbeat. And becky went too! My lovely cousie :) Super chio okay. Hahaha. Want her no.? Ask me :b
Anyway, even before the concert started, my voice break already lor. Directly people around and helping out with everything else. Oh my god. And then shouting over the phone cos it was too damn noisy.
Anyway, my voice sounded like shit when the first song started playing. Lol. But during the first few songs, i still jumped, praised, worshipped and sang like nobody's business. Praying and trusing god at the same time to heal me insantly. And woah, in a split second, i covered my ears to hear myself and i sounded as normal as ever man! Glory to jesus lah, so miraculous! :D

And the concert ended at 10 plus. It was really an awesome sight when i saw from the front hundreds of people standing up, brave, to receive christ and to be saved. So proud of my god lah. He not only touches people but He grabs us! It was so spectacular man. Super touched through the anointing until i cried. Acks. But, breakthrough luh :)

After the concert, bid bye to many many people. Hugs and kisses. Left off to mrt stn with donatus, bel, dan, jovy and some radical poops. Trained home.
Met mommy and grandpa at tp. They brought me out for supper. Yay :D

Okay. This is a super long post, i'm going off now, bye!
P/s, pixies are with sherrie and uncle jerome! :)

along the track.

2009-07-24T00:01:00.000-07:00

HI.

This week was simple yet great :)
Blessed luh, hahahah.

Anyway idk why, but i feel kinda weird right now.
It's like i'm missing out on something. Hm.
Oh wells, nvm. It's the zone tmr :D !!! Gonna be so anointing and the presence of god is gonna be sooo greattt :D
Can't wait can't wait can't waitttt.

Can't wait to see many many countless people.
Can't wait to see many many countless familiar faces!
Can't wait to have many many countless fun with friends!
Just can't wait for every exciting and awesome thing that's gonna happen tmr. Amenn! :)

Okey dokey, here goes abt my week.
...
Monday was funny.
Our class dk why but suddenly became animal farm during eng lesson.
Hahaha! Haoran kena called donkey for making so much unnecessary, irritating noises and talking crapz. :S

Then zhisheng was donkey no.2,
desmond was half donkey half human.
Yoonjung was the female donkey of the class.
And as usual i'm the cute little piggg!
Kenneth the orange irritating rattt >:)
Xintian the playful, active monkey.
Josephine the lizard, hahah!
So funny. okay,
Lastly. Kim the cowww goes moooo.
And augus the talkative goooooseee.

HAHAHA I LOVE MY CLASS MAN. EVERYBODY'S SO FUNNY!

And then tuesday, hm. Nothing much bah.

Wednesday, mr ko taught us to use the word 'faeces' instead of the S-H-I-T word.
Lol. Cos the guys were all like, 'oh shit' when mr ko asked for the homework to be passed down and handed in.
Then mr ko got so mad he shouted: "Eh please ah, don't use the S-H-I-T word okay! The official word for S-H-I-T is faeces! So you all should be using it instead of the S-H-I-T word!"

Hahahaha super funny.
So when we all heard this, everybody started rejoicing faeces. Lmao.

And it's thursday :D :D
I'm loving it. Cos i went out after school to meet cheryl (luv) at orchard.
Went to shaw tower and caught harry potter and the half blood prince!
The show wasn't honestly that nice, but the day was spent awesome!

And then there were alot of times we kept saying 'trust god' and 'woah god's grace eh!'.
Cos, eg. We ordered mac meals before the movie so that we could take in and eat it, then the $5 note that the cashier woman used to return me for my change, i lent to cheryl so she could pay for her meal.
But when we passed the woman the note, it dk why suddenly tore into half. And it was PLASTIC note some more okay, how to tear? Unless use scissors luh. Then it was perfectly fine when it was on our hands but when pass to the woman immediately destroyed.
Scary sia.

So we tried to explain to the woman, then after awhile she said it's okay, i'll just keep the note.
Woah, and we thought she'll be super angry luh. So we stood one side and waited for the meals to come.

Second incident was in the threatre.
Cos we made quite alot of noise with the mac paper bag. I mean if we don't meddle with it how to eat right?
So the couple beside us was quite fed up and kept tsking and shhhing us. And obviously we were kinda irritating too lah, then wanted to change seats.
But suddenly the couple stood up instead and moved up to in front.

And cheryl and i were like: woah? and looking at each other. Awesome or what man!?
God is good man.
Then the movie ended about 5 plus, we went into several shops like cotton on! to window shop and take looks and buy cheryl's flats.
We soon left when it was 6 plus :( hahah.

Friday.. today.
School turned out to be rather fruitful and fun!
With people like xintian, renwen and kenneth! :D hahah!
Okay lah, and kimb, joe and jan! :)

I kept going abt the class and asked amanda, xt and kenneth what day it was today and tmr. And only xintian got it right!
Hahaha. Today's friday. Tmr's not saturday but ZONE DAY! WOOHOO HAHAHA YAYYY.

After school, bused to tp with renwen and had lunch at delifrance.
Wow super full now man. Good meal :)
Afterwards, homed!

YIPPEEE AWESOMIO.
1 MORE DAY TO ZONE!
P/s, eh no. It's actually less than 24 hrs! :D

don't slouch, stand tall.

2009-07-23T04:21:00.003-07:00

Why am i always getting into trouble because of what the world says?
Why am i called dishonest when there are others out there who are even more dishonest than me?
Aren't i being honest by raising up my hands as a sign of admitting i did something i'm not supposed to do?
Whereas others manage to get away with it?

It's so unfair.
I wish i didn't have to get influenced by what the world does and says to me.
I only wish that the teacher could see the truth.

I really wanna be a good student, a pleasant girl.
I never asked to forget my books and get other innocent friends into trouble with me.
I just wanna explain myself, but i don't think the teacher would even let me do so.

I really wanna be a good student.
I just wanna prove myself to all my classmates and teachers. It is that difficult?

I'm may be worn out by work at times but i always believe that God is my restoration and strength,
and i'll keep walking on by faith.
I'm not angry with the teacher nor my friends or anyone else.
I'm not unhappy and i'm not pissed.

I just feel really disappointed with myself.
Why can't i do it?
And i feel very upset with.. i don't know what.
I just don't know what to be feeling now.

I only ask for more than enough favour :)

only hope.

2009-07-21T03:36:00.000-07:00

I srsly desperately need help with math.
I cannot even do a simple piece of graph work man, wl. What shit is this lah.
You think idw to do well also meh, tsk.

I need a tutor. A good one.
I don't want another F9. I want an A. Just like saying A-men!

I need the motivation and inspiration to do my work well. And get more focused on math.
Damnit.

Eh last year in sec 1 i did so well puhlease. 92.3 eh, omg i'm so proud of it :D
But now. F9. Yeah all thanks to the teacher.
However, i know i know. I shouldn't push all the blame on her. I need to concentrate on the work myself.
But just go ask the class lah, she's not a good teacher. She cannot teach. I'm sorry for saying this but yeah, it's true.

She's really kind, helpful and nice tho. But not serious enough for a teacher.
It's a pity.

Sigh. God help me please!

lifted high.

2009-07-18T07:09:00.000-07:00

Racia sees you.:
WASSUP JUNHAO

Lee Jun Hao:
wassup RACIA

Racia sees you.:
HAHAHA! OMG WHAT TIME DID YOU LEAVE JUST NOW.

Lee Jun Hao:
i just reach home lol

Lee Jun Hao:
8.15 i leave abt there

Racia sees you.:
OMG SO LATE.
WOW THANK GOD I DIDNT WAIT FOR YOU!

Lee Jun Hao:
lol,
LOl
lol

Racia sees you.:
HAHAHA
OMG ARE YOU GOING FOR THE ZONE?

Lee Jun Hao:
YES I AMM, THE WHOLE DAY
YOU?????????????????/

Racia sees you.:
HAHAH ME TOO!
HI5!

Lee Jun Hao:
HI5
LOW4
whole day right?

Racia sees you.:
HAHA YEAHP!
OMG LOW4. HAHAHA SO FUNNY

Lee Jun Hao:
hahahah

Lee Jun Hao:
u doing what now/?

Racia sees you.:
doing alot of things hahah

Lee Jun Hao:
like what, lol

Racia sees you.:
hahah wait ah. cos im on the phone

Lee Jun Hao:
lol, ok, haha
-
Omg super random i know. Hahaha but at first it was damn funny.
Tho now i think it's damn stupid. paiseh hehe.
Anyway god's amazing grace man!
He let mommy allow me to go for svc tmr :D awesomio!

Okay. Anyway i think my friends are awesomio!
Byebye mellow.
P/s, i'm on the phone with joel now and he's using his mouth to beatbox?.
Well that's what he says but i say it's called farting. Lol.

arms open wide.

2009-07-18T06:24:00.001-07:00

How shall i start?
Well there's just so much to talk about friday and today :D
All praise and thanks to god.
And also joshua and alvin, thank you! For you know what uh, haha.

Friday school was good. Will be better amen!
After school, had lunch at renwen's place.
Woah her ahma's cooking rocks man. I've never had such great homecook food for a really long time :)
And i always thought crab tastes sucky, but i was proven wrong \m/

Afterwards, took off for tp interchange where i met charity and trained to newton together.
And when we were at the bus stop, lotsa spastic moments occured.
Hahah charity was high again! Aiya she's like forever high was me!
Must be that light of god shining in me muahaha! And favour wooho.
:D

Eh, then after that we got on the bus and beloved rat called me up cos he needed my help urgently.
HAHA super funny man.
Cos kenneth was having his cell group perfomance that night and he was the narator,
so he wanted me to help me test out his speech and whatever lah.
Hahaha then on the bus he kept complaining that i was speaking too softly.
And i kept making him laugh just when he's about to recite.
Stupid sia, my fault lah?! hahah.

Then when i was laughing at what he said,
he was so mean he exclaimed: oh my gosh? did i just hear a pig laugh? or was it a snore?
HAHAHA stupid mad rat when laughing.
And cos his ears were far too small that's why he couldnt hear me speak loud enough.
YAY AHAHA :D

And kenneth super long winded lah, dont wanna put down the phone.
Keep talking to me like some mother. Hahaha! Mummy rat.
Ew so gay. hahah :)

So later onwards, we met claire at the destinated bus stop and walked to jay's condo.
Got to the function rm first and started playing with water.
OMG SO FUN. i wanna play again! :D
Okay, so the practise was long. Lasted till 10 plus.
And to cut the long story short, i got home by 12 after sending jeter and joel a lift to bishan again.
Hahah, it was an awesome day man :D
Oh and kenneth is super kind! He actually typed out all the chinese suyu for me so that i could learn for my chinese test on friday.
I lost the paper :B heheh, but i didnt take an extra glance at the smses and went to bed.
HAHA SORRY RAT. I KNOW YOU WERE MAD AT ME FOR THIS :B
But, i love you! Lol.

Today was the big day.
After so so many days of practices at diff ppl's hses, time for us to showcase our dancing talents.
Coolio! :)
But it was kinda screwed cos i forgot my solo parts, damn :'(
And i didnt like what i wore today. I mean it was uncomfortable, sorry.

After svc, went to koufu with dg *love yall* then had a short celebration session for kenchan's birthday!
Yay. Thanks for being sucha wonder coach and been sucha great blessing man!
Afterwards, slacked. did alota other stuff and time i went home :)
Walked to city hall and trained back with clare, yinying and RACHEL!
I LOVE YOU BABE SO LONG DIDNT SEE YOU ALD! :D

Eh then it was super funny on our way to city hall. hahahah.
Favour from god to have such awesome friends!

Goodbye.

turn me into smoke.

2009-07-16T00:16:00.000-07:00

Hell the toes.
Hello i mean. Lol.

Alright, i shall get to the point.
I'm sick again and i missed school today.

I'm bored.
Bored to dust and not tears.
I just want the week ends to come sooner and faster.
Tolong okay, okay now goodbye!

P/s, oh and i think my laptop is spoiling.
It's only less than a year's old. My god. I need a new one now.