You could be right,
perhaps we really don't clique.
Apparently we look like one, but we just don't fit in altogether.

I really don't wanna complain,
i really don't wanna dread.
I really wanna keep that smile running,
i really wanna be that happy yappy apple like before.

I wanna know that you guys still care,
i wanna know that you guys still appreciate my existence.
I don't wanna be treated like someone i'm not,
i don't wanna be like your scapegoat.

All i ask for is appreciation of my existence,
and simply treat me the way you want to be treated.

I may not be the best friend you've ever met,
i may not the perfect person you've ever known.
But i just want you to know how much i appreciate you as a living friend.
I just want you to know how hurtful it can get when you use words that does so much to ache my heart, when you don't even realise.

All i want is to be treated like a real human with true feelings.
I just want a little more attention and concern, is it that difficult?

These sufferings and heartaches, you may not have experienced.
You think it's a joke? It's not okay.
If i did it on you, how do you think you'd feel.
You can never have the answer to my question.
That's because you only care about yourself. You have never spared a thought for how i would've felt.

Everytime i tried to give in to you,
everytime i tried to suit to you.
All the time i tried to be there for you when you needed,
all the time i tried to do my best to please you.
It's always not good enough.

I just wanna be myself. I wanna enjoy doing that.
Sometimes i really wish i could puke every injury and hurt from the inside out,
sometimes i just wish there was somebody that would shut up the whole time and let me do all the talking.
I don't need a friend to give me great advises,
i don't need a fantastic listener,
i don't need a strong shoulder to let me lean on.
I just want company from a friend.
Sit by me for hours staring into thin air, and let me crap all i want until i think i'm full,
then leave the spot and go home.

All i want is something that simple.
Making my friends happy and laugh is my nature? Yeah.
Sounds so true.
But why can't i make myself happier?
As i get older each day, more problems flood my way.
But i'm still believing that God will never let this be forever.
He's my help and restoration. He's gonna turn things around for my good.
And He's my mighty Saviour.

I don't wanna cry under the table,
and tell my friends i'm alright.
I don't wanna sob in the dark,
and lie to my friends that dust got into my eyes.

Right now, i think i just need some comfort and rest.