When you turn those scars into
stars
Wednesday, March 31, 2010, 6:30 AM
faces.

I'm not just a face in the crowd. Imma beloved, that's my special unique identity.
It's irreplacable.

Anyway, I've 2 tests tmr & I'm not ready.. Jesus I need you *tears* As my wisdom and faith. Please? Alright amen *slight doubt*. Let tomorrow pass and it's a holi-DAY + eventful weekend.

Saturday, March 27, 2010, 7:22 AM
screwed.

I've no might.
I'm powerless. But I still wanna miss you.
I feel like it.
However, I don't enjoy missing you.
Because when i miss you, it shows we're not hanging out anymore.
That we're not spending as much time together as before.
I absolutely HATE that.
I miss _____, very very much.
If only we could still be best best friends...

******************
You told me: "You should try and strike a conversation with him."
I replied: "No, I cannot and I won't do it again. I'm exhausted from all that trying."
You reminded me: "You just gotta try one more time. After all, best friends always fight."
I finally reassured you: "Yes but I'm never turning back to look at that situation again."

*************

I told jochebel this:
"Do you know, that everytime I see ____,
I'll be reminded of the past?
Of the promises he made to me?
Of the littlest yet thoughtful things he did for me?
Of the extra mile he took for me?
Of his laughter, of his smile?
Of everything...
And I'll feel hurt,
& discontentment, and unhappiness.
Becuz I realise then that he never kept his promise about this friendship..
Then that strike of anger and unforgiving heart takes over.
I'll cry,
Because I feel horrid and I don't like things this way.

*****************
I wrote you a letter, I made you a card,
You simply rejected it.

Thursday, March 25, 2010, 8:28 AM
sometimes i just wanna hate you.

This is fucking stupid.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010, 5:46 AM
stuck at the moment.

I'm stinkin' bored bored BORED.
Talkin' to jeter over @ msn now.. Haha cool, got to catch up after the last time we had SJ prac @ jay's (Y)

I'm all done with my school work! Even those that's supposed to be handed in -NOT TOMORROW- Wow, truly God's restful increase. Hahah I feel rested :)
However I can't help but feel kinda bored.. Now that i'm left with nothing to do.

To-do list:
  1. Im gonna practise piano pieces,
  2. Watch TV,
  3. Read Manga Munity,
  4. Meditate on the Word (spiritual warfare)
  5. ... then SLEEP EARLY.

Yeahhhh righttt :> P/s Mother tongue today was fruitful yayay.


Monday, March 22, 2010, 3:01 AM
more than conquerors.

Days ahead are gonna be SO super blessed for me cuz God is with me, and I know it.
FAITH.

Im gonna rest, even though everything seems to be happening like craze and nuts, but Jesus said He'll calm the storms for me.
Besides, He's my wisdom to manage and do all things right, right? Haha Amen.

A week's holiday passed literally in a few blinks. Yesterday felt like the first day of hols, and today, nearly half passed. Time pass so quickly when you're busy... But it's good! Hehe cuz tell me, WHO LIKES A SCHOOL DAY?!?! Yeahhh man x)

Im looking forward to Saturday! When i'm spending it with the dg. Awesome shit blessing yea?

And honestly, though i love dance and i look forward to exciting events coming up, Father, i just don't feel like turning up for cca tmr. Sigh but i know you'll lead me to do the right things @ the right time.
You'll make me do what you planned for me to do. What is right, and that will bless me.

Although the teachers have already constantly been reminding the class about mye's load and heavy percentage, and it creeps me a lil. I do feel afraid and flabbergasted at the amount of time i'm left with to the exams. In my mind i was like !@#$%^&*? when the teachers told us we were left with 6 frigging weeks.
Including all that school workshops, supplementary classes, cca, ongoing activities, school performances and etc. Plain insanity. So much work from every teacher. I bet i'll be dead sooner or later.

But Jesus, salvage me from all these. Im gonna conquer them by the righteousness of faith, the busyness won't conquer me. I'll control them! Amen!!

:)

Sunday, March 14, 2010, 9:03 AM
so much for my happy ending.


When I saw you again, I nearly dropped tears, but i held it back.
I knew then that I still missed you dearly.
Searchin' deeper, there's still an empty space left for you to fill.

i see your face in my mind

313 WAS (Y)
But it would've been better if I wasn't so distracted, & if only I understood the language better..

Oh wells, it was a looong yesterday. It was errr fun and why er? Cuz the day didnt turn out the way I wanted it to be ): how disappointing. Why fun? Cuz the dg made my day.
I loved the musical. It also gives me an opportunity to tease Terence and Meladie now hehe ;)

Kor owes me lunch. He's so dead >:)

Monday, March 8, 2010, 2:31 AM
hmm whatcha say?

The weekend was crazy. I was all sweaty and jumpy and joyful and happening on saturday @ dare and nuts all over my head. But I was calm and peaceful and gleeful and cool on sunday @ church. I kinda slept with a smile on my face yesterday night, and I like that.

It's possible that Jesus would make school day a church day for you! Cuz He made today one for me :) I'm eyeing on 313. The dg's mtg frigging early on saturday to swim @ yj's then lunch then blah blah blah. Wait for my updates till then, bye! (L)

Monday, March 1, 2010, 4:06 AM
heavy heart

Hi there.

Weekdays in school are awesome, especially with 3E4. I'd never wanna miss a day of school all thanks to a class of crazy nuts :)
BUT. weekends are especially awesome for me cuz I meet awesome people and I KNOW MORE ABOUT JESUS JESUS JESUS

Im happy and I'll be. My past weekend was ordinary yet eventful.

  • Level session on Sat - followed by dinner @ grandpa's - homed past midnight
  • 3rd service on Sun - spent the morning w mom & we had early lunch - got to Mac's by noon
  • Service was great! Jesus is so super cool you know? He keeps reminding us that We are His beloved & We are more than conquerors even though we have heard that more than a million times? (those may just be the norm but thinking deeper, you just know that Jesus is reminding you that becuz you're His beloved, and God has made you more than conquerors; to reign over every odds, He'll fight your battles for you!)
  • Stayed for 4th PW, met ernie & han quan & joy keshyap (Y)
  • I disturbed dylan, joy chua's son (along with anthony and james) HAHAHA i'm so motherly, not
  • We joined the level 4's to study @ MPG. ___ taught me a variety of strumming methods then. & kylie helped me with bio (Y)
  • We left @ 7+ and i got home by cab with bel, but still late ): haha that's it!



She told me "You can do without him".
But what's troubling me now is the BIG question:
"Isn't he my best friend?"
Thinking to myself and knowing, I won't be able to forget about it.
Or rather, i can't and i know i won't; he's my best buddy for more than a reason.




I miss him alot.



Aloha !

My big name's Racia and I'mma Pig.
Other than snorting whole day long and rolling over the awesome smelly mud,

I'mma insane dancer.
And I LOVE YAHWEH.

Green is the sex.
Also,
I'm turning 15 on 'ohsixoheight.
:)


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New pair of slippers
Pretty hand bags :]
Grey hoodie
Black jacket (:
Adidas running shoes
Learn to walk on heels
Macbook WHOO.
iPod touch!
More of Pastor's sermon discs
DSLR canon 500d
A new wallet/purse
SEXY GREEN ELECTRIC GUITAR (Y)
A pair of drum sticks!
A DG SHIRT.