"Be not wise in your own eyes" (Proverbs 3:5-7)

God wants to hear us say, "Lord, I dont know how You're going to do this. I don't care how You do it. However You do it, I know it's going to be right. I can't do it anyway, so I'm not going to frustrate myself trying to figure out how I can do it, God. I trust all my circumstances to You. My times are in Your hands. Trusting You is my first priority in life."

In pursuit of Peace (God's Grace and Power)
"Tell people the good qualities you recognize in them; don't point out what you think they need to improve. Compliment, don't find fault. Accept, don't reject. Be positive, not negative. Be encouraging, not discouraging. You and I will never lack for friends if we will practice giving people the freedom to be themselves." - Pg 230

How difficult is it to let go of works and to trust God's grace to carry us where we want to go?

If we cannot let the grace of God work for us in small areas, we will never learn to let it work for us in the big ones. (good phrase)

Worry is the work of our flesh nd is unscriptural. Worry, reasoning, and frustration are internal types of work that do not please God.

I'm using blogger to glorify God. And i'm proud of it :D there's still more to share in the book, but i shall save for it other days :) i shall meditate on these few verses first :)
School has been very busy. Countdown: 5 days to eoy exams! Wow thats really quick i just realised. Lol but nvm! Trust in the lord and not worry or be frustrated with men's works! Oh jesus jesus, shower your favour grace and blessing unto me Amen :D

Uh my eyes aint working properly today.
I thought i saw HUGE LIZARDS on the parade ground today after school when they were actually so called guns the np people were using during their trng. Lol.

Later needa mug for chinese test D: assessment books go into the fire! Rah. Still got chinese compo to chiong. OH THIS IS SADISTIC. God help me. And i'm leaving tmr and the rest of this week in your hands, it shall be blessed and i shall be soo favoured by everyone i meet and not lose my patience at anybody. Ya know what i mean ;) love you jesus ♥

Oh yes and today's photo taking was fun :D

Today school was fun. But i was feelin' very sleepy especially during eng and mother tongue. Lol. Eng: i was bored to tears (seriously)

Thank goodness we didnt have to stay back eventually for math + hist and for me, science. Cause i wanna get help from mrs goh with the new topic so i can also prepare myself for the test and exam :)
Now i'm gna go bathe soon and mug for hist :/ siannn. It's okay! Jesus will make it fun and interesting for me and bless the test for me Amen!

Qianying came back to singapore to visit me at my place. Shucks i werent being a very good host just now but she didnt mind, thanks girl. Oh and we're supposed to meet for dinner tomorrow but everyone is busy with their own stuff, hopefully i can change piano to sat instead of friday. Then we can dinner on friday night before her flight back to australia! :) Yay me :B

Tomorrow after school, i'm gonna get home asap and do some assessments for chinese, math and science! Amen! So as to prepare for the chinese test on thurs, doing the chinese assessment book i just bought should help (thumbs up). Kk ciao.

From jochebel khong:
"Favour is upon you man :)
Don't feel condemned by whatever she says. His blood has redeemed you from it :)
Whatever she says is not true. The devil is attacking you from using your teacher."

And i say YES AMEN!
Now i shall go back to school tmr with a spirit of Wisdom and a heart for learning through His glory and honour :D school is fun with Jesus my Wisdom! Amen! I cannot wait to return to school yeaaa! :D

Credits to bel, and all the glory to YAHWEH :)

The flea on saturday wasnt very successful though. But it was very fun! Though the super saaad thing was my mom lost 100+ bucks that we earned. Shhhht :/

Oh well, god will multiply 5 TIMES of what that is lost Amen! :D
And i was happy last night cause i spoke to cheryl after such a looong time and i missed her very much :) :) :) i'm glad god changed her and i will too cause of my identity in christ yo!

I spent 3 hrs studying science today. The chapter i felt super pekchek with, sighh. I pray that god will bless me and over the subjects i'm learning. My exams are gonna be a fun and exciting ride! I shall come outta the tunnel with a wide smile on my face knowing i did well. Amen Amen :)

I was also feeling very condemned about what a teacher told me at school last week. She said to me that i was a stupid girl and i am definitely making my way down to the normal stream at the rate i'm going. I'm not a very smart student she said.
I was extremely bothered by what she told me and it distracted me out of studying the subject i used to love.
But i know that god is for me and He will always be. He is the same today, yesterday and forever. I'm the righteousness of god in christ and He is the only person who shall have the last say (Y) "do not let anything of the devil to push you away from your path of righteousness" "you who believe in the lord, is the conqueror of all things and you are called to reign above all your circumstances!"

I'm gonna keep on meditating and believing on those 2 verses and trusting in Abba for the Wisdom (Jesus) and the abundance of favour with my teachers and school mates :) "anything that is NOT from jesus is NOT a blessing" Amen!

This week is called to be a blessed and highly favoured week for me and all new crea people! Whoo! (Y)(Y) Amanda is so loved and she rocks a million man, she's a babe! :)

AMANDA SIAW WEI MIN:
Thanks for being sucha wonderful pal. I love you!
And i know you do too, haha. All the best for eoys and thanks for everything la!
Knowing you is a blessing and this blessing shall not run away from me,
in fact it will chase me down in jesus name Amen! :D

I really wanna change my skin after eoys man.
Anyway the word today was damn goood, i can use it to apply unto my studies! Whoo, god is good :)

- I'm made in God's image and i'm beautiful cause jesus is.
- Jesus = Wisdom and wisdom lives in me! It is infinite and it's victorious :)
- I'm left with 17 more days to eoy, no. of victory man! :D
- Leave my problems with jesus, He will make all things well and fall into place.
etc.

I was mad late so i couldnt make it for 1st service, i went for 2nd with michelle instead.

After church, we went to the food place for lunch and started studying at 2.30 i guess. Lysander, gideon loh and bridgette came to join us later. I did math practices for 2hrs and i'm so happy with me!
Gideon left the earliest but we slowly left afterwards, michelle and i came across percious thots and went in to take a look. I decided to get jay's present there since the gifts there were nice :) now i'm left with his last pressie and i'm intending to get him a ___ bleah i'm not that dumb to say it here! Haha.

Trained home.
Now i gotta ask god for Wisdom upon my studies & results, and to choose between the subjects i'm taking next year. And hi monster, i'm sooo not getting into NA next year cause whatever that's not from god, is not a blessing. God wants me to get into the top 3E class in 2010 & I WILL AMEN. What i become and what class i get into next year, it's not up to you to decide :)

Yay, 3E here i come! Tomorrow i'm gonna chiong hist and science, then do practices for math and go for math tuition in the evening. Wow, busy schedule but i will trust god and He will multiply time for me! Amen & byee :D

YAY. Blogger's back to its tip top posisi. Hahaha, oh well the week has been very busy for me and the class i'm sure.

Monday was super favoured monday. It was music period, i told mr gan that i emailed to him my super dued project over hotmail instead of saving into his project folder and he said ITS ALRIGHT. He didnt even reprimand me for handing up my work late, wow. And the rest of the days are just learning periods which were fruitful and i did not feel lethargic. Whoo!

The day before monday, sunday obviously, i slept past 12 to study 听写 but we werent tested on monday eventually cause only 3 pathetic souls in the class studied and it included me! Ha so cool right, i actually studied for chinese spelling :D oh well, probably god knows i'm gonna score even better if it's tested on another day AMEN. Peace out woot. Blah blah blah, and tuition after school. Miss lim allowed amanda, rw and i to skip math supp cause our math tuition was starting at 3. I also had to skip dance D: oh wells!

Tuesday was freakier, and i forgot why. Lol. Science was kinda okey dokey, except that the new topic's freaking me out. I need to save my ass, i gotta find mrs goh one day after school to help me "let go" of that phobia. Lol i musttt ace this topic and prove everyone wrong! :) AMEN.
-- And piano at night. Jojo bathed! And she smelled great so i gave her a kiss and she was happy, she wacked her tail. Haha :D

Wednesday was fun! I think i think cause there was dance! And it was the last dance prac before the stand down as it was gonna be eoy. I cannot wait for ccas to resume again! Whoo, then i can finish learning the dance steps for fame & hopefully (with fingers crossed), get selected for dance works '10! Yayy, amen!

Thursday we had science test and it was manageble cause i studied! And god made it easier than i imagined :) so just leave the rest to god, cause i'm over and done with this test for now. I'm gonna focus and practise more on my math now cause His A1 is gonna be mine! Amen!
-- And because there was math post holiday test the next day, i studied and did practices on math till 3am in the morning! Lol, but thank goodness i had a 4 and half hr nap in the afternoon. I only woke up at 8.30pm and had late dinner. Haha cause i was super duper exhausted from school since i've been sleeping late for the past few days :(

Friday we did the paper on the first 2 math period, it was 10 looong questions. Some were tough but still manageable. Somehow it was just His given grace lor, cause i never gave up and i kept on going :) :) GRACE fully, i will reign over this paper and not disappoint my parents or miss lim anymore! Cause i'm His righteouness and His beloved, i can do it yah!
It was a short day at school though, miss tan didnt appear at school so we had 3 free periods and half the class (index 20 to 39) stayed in class while the other half went down to the kitchen to bake banana cupcakes! Amanda's was yummyyy. It was very fun staying in class cause half the class gathered round 5 tables and we started playing truth or dare! It was super funny okay, haha the forfeits were ridiculous and sick.

And then i was kinda like "the alerter" cause when i saw mrs goh, the first thing i said was: "mrs goh alert, she's coming!" then kim grabbed her science textbook and opened it, so did i. And wenqi hid the sweet drink bottle under the desk, then everybody started speaking to one another bout the topic we touched on recently. HAHAHA so funny then when mrs goh came in, ryan suddenly said: "it's vascular ah, rmb okay" to hao ran. Lolll.
-- After school, we went to amanda's for lunch before we headed off for tuition. It was fruitful and i managed to cover up on my misunderstandings for simutaneous equations! Whoo.

I went for lvl session with kimb and amanda! We met at orchard around 12.30 and lunched at food republic. The food there was so yummy, we're sooo going back again to eat there next lvl session :) :) the unfortunate things that day were, xintian cmi D: and the pathetic had only 4 youths who went and they were me, kimb, amanda and pearlyn. And cause she was serving, we met her at relc later at 2.

I nvr regretted gng for lvl session cause the Word was meaningful and awesome yo. It's about putting jesus as our centre piece and all other commitments will just fall into piece. Eg, we have commitments such as family, shopping, cca, studies, movies, fb, and etc but without the centre piece, things will just get old and boring. And nothing will be done well and we will not be fed (with the word of god) well. Also, when we are bored, use the internet wisely for it's god's glory and honour. We dont use it for pornography or other rubbish stuff like bgr, we can actually use the internet to listen to sermon, download it and visit the zone website & etc, when we're bored. Feed ourselves with the word and seeee more of jesus! :D like that we wont get bored already. Coolio!

After lvl session, bused back to orchard mrt with the sexy trio. While waiting for bus, kimb was superrr cute and retarded. HAHAHA she was telling pearlyn all bout the Orphan cause amanda and i told her bout it before lvl session & while waiting aimlessly at the mrt for the rest of the dg to come but soon found out they werent coming -.- Lol, and then kimb doesnt get the whole storyline well so she kept on looking at amanda and i to ask like: what happen next ah? HAHAHA so adorable laaa :D see kimb! I'm saying that you're cute! (amen) pearlyn kept on complaining to me that kimb's being very funny and retarded cause she went like: see see, very scary horrr. in that creepy tone. HAHAHAHA so hilarious!

Afterwards, kimb left first so pearlyn, amanda and i just walked around at wisma. So boringgg i'm sick of that place. If i go there, i'm only gng there for the face shop, cotton on & f21. Full stop, so jesus, spare me with moolahs! $$$ wth okay.

I'm looking forward to next lvl session cause i cmi for dare this week :( i'm like forever not showing up on dare luh, cause imma busy lady. Ha, but it's okay! TRUST GOD WHOOO. He's more than enough! I'm gonna take what's mine MUAHAHAHA.

And now, i'm not gna be lazy anymore. I'm gna upload the albums onto fb, i ought to do this looong looong agooo. Oh! Ya hear that? The cow's sounding! MOOOOOOO. HAHAHAHA i'm just random ^^v School's gna be greattt and better better better each day, AMEN. Ciao.

★ < i like i like this star, so cute :)

Anw i'm lazy to bitch about kenneth chia here, haha. I'd rather save my breath, time and energy :D I can save my fingers for better things to do :) like srsly. Hahah dexter and amanda would know why ^^V

Anyway, there is level session tmr and i'm going! For the first time! Haha i'm so happy, i cant wait to go! :D oh and today was awesome! I went out to study at national library with rw and amanda.
We arranged to meet at toa payoh, 12.30 pm but everyone was late. Lol, so coincidentally i met amanda on 163. Haha then we bused to the station to meet rw, and trained to bugis together. While we were on our way there, we bought lunch from fei xiong at the junction and walked pass bugis street. And that's where i met this super duper cuteee ang moh guy who's around my age and height :D :D :D OMG HE IS FUCKING HOT TTM. I LOVE HIM HAHAHA.(beware: racia yoong is going boy crazy at 101% speed)

But it's sad to say that i couldnt go over to him and say: hi. HAHAHA and ask for his name, age, school, address, cca, email and number. Lol shoot it. But he looks more like ang moh-chinese luh, oh wells. If God has predestined us to meet in the capacity of friends, then we'll meet. Amen :) hahah.

Got to the library and ate our packaged lunch at outside the cafe. All 3 of us forgot to bring jacket and it was freezing cold there, so i said: congradulations, welcome to the north pole of singapore! HAHA but it was a great time spent there cause i managed to self study history! But didnt have the time to do math cause i kept on rushing amanda and rw to go back to bugis st cause i wanted to look for that cute ang moh guy :B he is really cute okay, i cant help it! HAHAHA.

When we got to bugis st, i bought the clothes i was looking for and i saw many other lovely clothings that i wanna buy! But bo cash D: well it's ok it's alright cause God shall spare me with more than enough money after eoy AMEN. Then i can come back bugis shop like crazy and no one would care! :D then can go elsewhere to shop like crazy too, AMEN. Oh yeaaah! :) :) then hopefully i can meet that cute ang moh guy again some day :)

Ok ok i shall stop right here, cause i need to send some email to yee chiu regarding the chinese project and do a lil bit of school work. Ciao.

I'm back so soon! Cause i've got ALOT ALOT ALOT to post about yesterday. IT WAS VERY GOOOOOOD! BETTER THAN AWESOME! So here goes,

(1) Met xt, kimb and sher at sgoon station by 2. Took 315 to sgono gardens and had macs for lunch. Pearlyn joined us afterwards. By 3, we're done eating and head to cold storage where pearlyn bought daryl pretty looking strawberries. And then bought cake at some B shop name :B seet and roy found us there. So we all paid for the cake and went off to daryl's place.

(2) When we got there, we sneaked to his back door and left the cake in the fridge at the backyard kitchen. Camwhored a hell load at the living room! HAHAHA very fun! We did super retarded jump shots and spastic candid's :D while the guys went out to macs to get food. Left little zeph at home and he was sooo anti-girls, he didnt wanna talk to us until xt and pearlyn spoke to him. Haha he didnt like me! D: i dont like him too! HMPH.

(3) When the guys came back, we chatted at the garden and was disturbed by the 2 dogs living next door. We all kpo, went out to see and seet and i kept on arguing on who's the one scaring the dogs. Haha then the dogs barked super loud! Noisy enough yet seet just had to go bark back at them and made them mad and barked louder -.- then went up to daryl's room to play. Chua and i stayed downstairs and listened to mp3. Haha then the nutty people upstairs held daryl down and used his phone to text weird dumb stupid mushy msgs to me. HAHAHA poor daryl, also tio :/ then wence came! Haha yo buddy.

(4) Got to daryl's room and watched wonder gays. Haha then wence was acting gay again. So we played and played then took dg shots! Hahah wow, daryl and seet's head soo BIG LAH. Block our faces (on purpose!) Haha, they claim those were "jump shots". Lol.

(5) We then decided to go downstairs and play water bomb. While wence and i had h2h, pearlyn joined in afterwards. It was cool (thumbs up) :D you guys rock okay! H2h for about an hour? Ha then it was time we had bbq and dinner! :D

(6) At the backyard kitc, xt and i lied to daryl "hey daryl, we forgot to buy the cake leh". Shh, then daryl soo nice said it was okay. Then we were all excited for the foooood! And finally, yang juin came. He only freaking came for the food lah! HAHAHAHA and only pearlyn was excited for the strawberries she bought. Haha it was supposed to be for daryl and it was too tempting, she kept on telling us that she wanna eat those strawberries.

(7) Dinner was very yummy! Tho i only had eaten 1 pizza :( so delicious! I wanna eat it again next time! :D then seet kept on encouraging zeph to drink the drink? Haha but he wasnt supposed to cause zeph has cough and there was a pinch of volka in the drink. Lol. After that we went for night walk!

(8) Walked along the roads in worthing and kensington road or something, then got to the end of the private estates and came upon this very dark alley. Super scary lah, we all ran for our lives HAHAHA. Finally we arrived at the playground. The swing was fun! :) snapped shots and etc then we started playing random games like tryna push one another off the bars? Haha. Afterwards, kimb xt pearlyn sher and i told the guys we'd go back first cause we needed to pee. In actuality, we went back to get the cake out and prepare it before daryl came back. The guys knew bout the plan so they just pretended to play with daryl at the spider web thingy.

(9) On our way back, kimb xt and i held hands super tightly cause we were super scared. Ahaha then kimb said "aiya we should've called the guys to come back with us! Now i'm so scared haha". Lol then we suggested to sing church songs to feel better and secured. So pearlyn started singing one song from the new album, faith+hope+love. Forgot what song then xt was like "sing one happy and lively song that we all know!" So we started singing Yesterday, Today, Forever You're the Same & Run & Tell the World & some cheers we'd do during dare like "hey jesus you're so fine, you're so fine you blow my mind. hey jesus hey hey! hey jesus hey hey!" hahah awesome! :D then we edited Run cause we got too tired from running. HAHAHA it become "so we will jump" & "we will hop". HAHAHAHA then we jumped tgt at "JESUSSSS!"

(10) And finally! We got to daryl's house after that long walk. Super long okay, so hallelujah! :P hurridly ran to the back and got the cake out. Wence was being our "guard on lookout" before daryl gets back. Haha but we couldnt get the candles to lit up asap cause there was wind. Then daryl almost spot the cake haha but thank goodness he didnt. Cause he was too damn thirsty, we ran to the backyard kitc to get himself a drink. Lol. Afterwards when we finally got the candles lit up, we assembled at the piano room and wence was in charge of so called "holding daryl down" before they both entered the room and we sang him the happy birthday song :D

(11) When the candles were blown out, cut cake!

(12) After the cake, we got back into the piano room and played dare or double-dare. Haha so funny. The arrow kept on shooting at daryl then the guys dared him to do alot of gross stuff. Ha. Roy kena then he had to call ___ to tell her that he loved her and had to include his name, age, ministry and dg. HAHA then it was chua's turn he had to call charmaine. Chua didnt have the guts to say it so seet helped him "hi hi er, btw nicholas chua wants to tell you that he loves you and nice talking to you so bye" HAHAHA then charm replied to seet "wtf was that all about" LOL!

(13) After playing several rounds, time we headed back. Left daryl's and bought frolicks! :D got to the bus stop at 11. Lol. And we took the wrong bus. Haha so we got down and took the bus from the opposite side, it had to loop. Waste trip -.- but the bus driver was the same guy and he was very nice, he laughed at us when he saw us again and we laughed back at him. Lol then xt said "uncle, uncle no need pay lah, we no need pay again lah" then he said "ok lah, you all dont need to tap your card again" WOAH. favour sia! :D haha then on the bus, everyone was super exhausted alr so we just talked a lil and prayed to get to sgoon station asap.

(14) Bye everyone! Circle lined home with xt :) then bused home, mom was waiting for me at the bus stoppie.

Conclusion: Yesterday was the bestttt time i had spent with the dg! After so long i've never been to dare or lvl sessions, i missed them lots okay! Now i've gotten to bond with them, Jesus made it a really fruitful one :)

Monday was good. I went out to meet yee chiu at lorong 1 outside macs around noon time to buy goodies for the xiao lao shi project. But i went to get macs for aaron and myself lunch first :D then we headed down to the blocks to buy the candies and snacks, goodie bags and buy my uniform!

After that, we got to my place to complete the rest of the work without amanda. Cause she was at bangkok D: oh well. We finished everything by 4 plus.

And today, i went back to school super early in the morning > 8AM. To meet amanda, yee chiu and ms tew to discuss the xiao lao shi presentation before the supp class started at 9. Blah blah blah, supp class next. Everything ended at noon.
J8-ed with rw and amanda. Lunched at deli, then we went down to macs cause i had to meet miss ong (dance instructor from RnM). Done and trained to orchard.

Caught Aliens in the Attic. Initially we wanted to watch The Time Traveler's Wife, but the movie only starts earliest at 4 and it was only 2.35 then. Lol, so we decided to watch the earliest movie then and it was that show. Lol, i relunctantly want to watch it. Simply trusted God to make the movie a good and worthwhile one. And miraculously, it turned out to be so! :D AWESOMEE, hahah.

The show is freaking hilarious. The flies are soo real. Hahah you wouldn't know what i mean until you watch it :)
Anyway, the show is just great and very funny. Got down to wisma after that, and honestly speaking, the only good places at wisma are Forever 21, Cotton on and Starbucks. Ha. So it was kinda boring. Decided to bounce home instead.

I'm exhausted now.

Tomorrow:
Not going for connect already. Why: family issues and i need to chiong studies alr. (neh mind, trust god!) :D

From today onwards:
I've lost my trust in her. I'm not trusting her anymore. We can no longer be best of friends like before already.

Since today morning:
I found a new reason to live! For my mother :) i love her and i dont wanna upset or disappoint her anymore. I'm not gonna let her down or go against her anymore. Jesus, You will do it with me cause i'm not alone! Amen :)

Last words (sept hols):
1) I'm going for 2nd on sunday (with mom i hope), other wise with rachel.
2) I'm gonna miss amanda cos she's going to thailand :(
3) I'm gonna chiong my maths! With jesussss! :D
4) I'm gonna fulfil all my own promises for the sept hols! (secretie)
5) I'm gonna spend time with family more often!
6) I'm gonna finish packing my things by monday night :)

I think that's about it. Oh yea! Gotta chiong TWO chinese project within the holiday D: but i can do it with jesus one! :) and study hist, science, math and home econ! :D :D
And school was quite good. Had alot of fun cleaning the school with ryan and gang. HAHAHA and i couldn't lunch with weiliang and co today cos i had to do work discussion :( pity. But it's ok! There's always another time! The new term's gonna be the beginning of a new start for me!

I CAN DO IT WITH JESUSSSSSS WOOOOHOOOO! HE NEVER FAILS ME RIGHT AMANDA? :D

I'M AT CAIFAN = MUSHROOM'S HSE NOW! HI TO ALL EARTHLINGS.

Today was rather screwed and wild. Lol. My phone and kenneth's phone was confiscated during free period. Which is still equals to curriculum hour lah but it was free period! AH. Anw xintian was involved in this phone confiscating thing so the 3 of us went to look for dm after school. We freaking waited for him for 45 mins man :( but ultimately he still didnt return us back our phones and we could only get our parents to claim it lol. Just say it: IT'S PATHETIC. Oh well i'm just gonna ask mom to fetch me to school tmr to collect my phone from mr goh :) :)

And now, cause my phone aint with me, i've to unknowingly cancel the movie date i arranged with caifan, kong wai and eugene D: D: D:
I didnt even get to inform them cos i forgot their numbers -.- HAHAHA so suddenly i rmb mushroom's home number then i decided to call her. So she called to go over to her place instead (p/s, she herself also forgot bout this date. hahaha)
Damn, now i feel so guilty cos i couldnt contact kw or anything D: well anw, i left school with janice and josephine then we talked super lot about lower sec life tgt and other stuff. Haha so memorable :)

56-ed to toa payoh hub. Bought bread for caifan and her mom :D seee i'm so good. Anw school was good! I was favoured man, tho didnt really learn much at school today :( but there'll still be more learning opportunities tmr! :D
And... caifan laughed super loud and crazy when i talked to her bout me and lihong prank calling nick kek in primary 6 using pei chun's private phone booth! HAHAHA freaking amusing. You guys should've heard the way he responded! Hahaha :P but it's alright lah, what's more, he's only primary 6 HELLO. ;D