While time is moving, as things are passing. Everything's changing, so is people.

You can be happy with your own company and your own friends, I won't have to do it your way anymore and i'm happy about that.
It really seems like it's a sudden stop to eveything and to this friendship. But it doesn't seem upsetting or anything anymore, it just seems like nothing. Cause i'm happy with who i am today and who i'm with. At least those friends don't despise me and order me to do things i don't like.

I am contented with how things are going on now. I'm trusting Yahweh for more and i'm gonna ask it from Him :) He will give me whatever i want and whatever i ask for! Amen :) I will grow and change from glory to glory, Amen!

It is probably a resting point for us and reflect on what we've been through before, what we've said and what we've done.
Sometimes i just cannot help but doubt my trust in you. That trust just doesn't lie anymore, it's faded away. I do wanna gain back that trust for this friendship but i cannot.
It's like everytime i know something goes wrong and i wanna know why, i wanna ask you about it. But i just cannot bring myself to cos you are my friend and a friend i don't wanna hurt. Most of the time when you hurt a friend, you end up losing them. So it ain't eay telling them how you feel. It just doesn't seem like it for me to use words and speak it out to people. I rather keep it to myself and let God understand everything.

I may be wronged and faulted by many, but so what? This is my attitude. To some it may be lousy or bad or alright, but i just cannot be bothered by what the world says. It feels different now, and my eyes are only towards Yahweh. It's like He's my only hope to Salvation, Refuge, Restoration, Guidance, Comfort and Rest. The things happening around me now doesn't really matter anymore. It's just such a cool sensation.

It's as though i'm in a place on earth, standing in a spot light and head lifted up. The only face or thing i see is Jesus' beautiful face. And the lovely blue sky covering every thing else. Then suddenly those saddening images show up but they flash pass. 2000 years ago, what Yeshuah has been through and what the full price of His blood He paid for me and the world. That generosity that i will not even shed for anyone, not even my own child in the future.

Afterwards, it's just WOAH. "IT IS FINISHED!" Jesus exclaimed! The torturous experience, so hurtful man, He did it for me already. So that i will experience what Jesus has been through. Not even the slightest pain near to what He has gone through. So awesome :) "And upon saying, He bowed down His head. He gave up (dismissed) His spirit." God is so wonderful.