Today was exhausting.
And so is trying to take your hands on everything by self.

Just when you think everything will still look the best, it actually isn't cos it starts to show through myself. The completely filled bottle will not spill or tumble, it will start to crack and then it breaks down. Just like my heart and me.
My life is His forever, He take it all, He controls my life, and i shall let Him do whatever He wants with it.

Though many things turn out this way but i know it's part of His plan for me. And i know He knows every little information about what's gna happen next and what's gna happen tomorrow. But whatever it is, He's always gna be there and He's never gna leave me. I lay down my life for You Jesus, You picked it up and You're making it well. You will make every worse situation turn out the best and the most remarkable.

I just can't do these on my own, i'm leaving it to You. You will take it all and handle them good and proper. And then you will return it to me, in tip top position. Thank You Father, i really do love You. And i wanna worship and keep on praising You all my life cos my life is Yours and You saved it.

I may be unhappy with a hypocritical bastard living by my side, but i know it's not gna affect me, it's gna help me cos You'll turn all things around for my good because of Your Glory. You Glorious God, thanks for loving me so much that sometimes i just can't receive all at a shot :D

I'm not by my own, i'm with You. And i'm gna go do my zuo wen now, You shall give me the inspiration to think and write, the strength to stay awake and keep my mind working. I call this week and the following weeks blessed in Jesus Mighty Name :) Amen.