I've no might.

I'm powerless. But I still wanna miss you.

I feel like it.

However, I don't enjoy missing you.

Because when i miss you, it shows we're not hanging out anymore.

That we're not spending as much time together as before.

I absolutely HATE that.

I miss _____, very very much.

If only we could still be best best friends...

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You told me: "You should try and strike a conversation with him."

I replied: "No, I cannot and I won't do it again. I'm exhausted from all that trying."

You reminded me: "You just gotta try one more time. After all, best friends always fight."

I finally reassured you: "Yes but I'm never turning back to look at that situation again."

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I told jochebel this:

"Do you know, that everytime I see ____,
I'll be reminded of the past?

Of the promises he made to me?

Of the littlest yet thoughtful things he did for me?
Of the extra mile he took for me?

Of his laughter, of his smile?

Of everything...
And I'll feel hurt,

& discontentment, and unhappiness.

Becuz I realise then that he never kept his promise about this friendship..
Then that strike of anger and unforgiving heart takes over.

I'll cry,

Because I feel horrid and I don't like things this way.

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I wrote you a letter, I made you a card,

You simply rejected it.